Happily Ever After

chapter 4

The look on his face as I plunged down on top of him was priceless. It was somewhere between, shock, surprise, and complete and utter adornment. Sure it hurt as he entered me, but the good outweighed the bad. I soon found myself picking up rhythm on top of him. He looked up at me in wonder, and enjoyment. He was enjoying this as much as I was. Every now and again he would let out a small moan, or groan. I on the other hand, had to work to be quiet. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, it felt so good. But I knew that If I did it would alert Chelsea and Peggy. Nathan seemed to  have the same thought, so he had one of his hands pressed up against my mouth to muffle the noise a bit. It didn’t really help, but no one had come up so far.

I continued to ride him, faster and faster, until we both climaxed together. I collapsed on top of him, and he held me close to his body as he flipped us over so that he was on top of me. He slowly withdrew himself from me, earning a gasp to escape my mouth. He rolled to the side, and held me to him again, more of a cuddle this time.

“Are you okay?” He whispered as his fingertips brushed across my cheekbone.

“I’ve never been better,” I smiled at him. “You know, that was my first time..”

“No way, that couldn’t have been,” He said, sounding surprised. “You were way to good, you knew what you were doing.”

“I just went by instinct and by what felt good,” I chuckled. “Come on, we should probably unpack.” He nodded and we both got up and got dressed.

After successfully unpacking all of my belongings,  Nathan gave me a quick peck on the lips and ran down to help Peggy and Chelsea, leaving me all alone with my thoughts.

My mind was instantly flooded with memories of what I just did. I had a feeling that I should regret what had just happened. Losing you virginity should be something special, but it was special, in it’s own way. I had liked Nathan for awhile now, and he finally showed interest. There’s nothing wrong with that right? Right. I got up off of the edge of the bed and looked into the mirror that stood on the dresser across the room. My cheeks had a faint blush to them, and my hair was a total mess. I sighed and undressed again. I grabbed a towel, wrapped it around my body, and walked into the adjacent bathroom across the hall and started the shower. I looked over my naked body in the mirror. I was no longer a virgin. Shouldn’t I look different? Or at the very least feel different? I felt the same way. And I felt the numbness coming back, stronger than before. It didn’t like being blocked out.

I stood in the shower, allowing the warm water to wash away all of the sweat off of my body. I pictured my moms dead body, and replayed the whole scene of what happened. Not a single tear dropped from my eyes. The numbness in my body allowed me to see the whole situation clearly. If I would have recognized the signs that my mother was using earlier, I could have saved her. I thought it over more as I washed my hair and body.

I stepped out of the shower and wrapped my body in my fluffy towel. I grabbed a smaller towel from under the sink and wrapped my hair up in it. I didn’t feel like blow drying it. I’d probably just end up throwing it up into a bun anyways. I opened the bathroom door and ran smack dab into a chiseled chest causing me to drop my towel, leaving myself exposed. I gasped and scrambled for my towel. Once I had it successfully wrapped around my body again, I looked up and met Nathan’s green eyes staring down at me with amusement.

“You look pretty hot all wet anna, but you probably shouldn’t just throw your towel off whenever I’m near you. Chelsea or my mom might see.” He smirked.

“I dropped it on accident, Don’t flatter yourself.” I sneered,  I didn’t like his tone.

“Whatever you say, babe.” His eyes turned cautious, “Also, Don’t tell anyone about earlier.”

“I didn’t plan on it…” He seemed so distant, and uncaring. “Did I do something wrong? You’re acting different?”

“Don’t get all attached babe, it was just meaningless sex, you know that right? I have a girlfriend.” My cheeks burned at his words, and I looked at the ground. “Oh, you didn’t know that…I’m sorry Anna, I thought you knew.”

“It’s whatever. Move so  I can get to my room please.” I felt tears rising up in my eyes, but I couldn’t let him see me cry. I pushed past him into my room, and slammed the door, sliding down the frame to the ground where I let the tears fall. Where was the numbness when I needed it?