Happily Ever After

Chapter 18

     I laid my head on Nathan's chest, and let out a blissful sigh. This was perfect. He was perfect. We were perfect. There was only one small problem. I was pregnant, and it was his baby. My thoughts soon turned sour as I thought of how i would tell him and how I would react. Should I wait and tell him? I've heard that pregnancy tests can sometimes give false positives, maybe I should see a doctor first. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. I decided to just push everything from my mind, and let my numbness overwhelm me. 

     I snuggled further into Nathan's chest, and he grabbed my hand and interlaced his hands with mine. 

     "Hey Anna, can I ask you a question?" Nathan murmured while stroking my hand with his thumb.

     "Yeah, sure." I half whispered. 

     "Are you pregnant?" I instantly froze. How could he possibly know? I just found out myself! Maybe he saw the test in the trash.. oh god, what am i going to say...

     "Wh-what? Why w-would you ask m-me that?" I stuttered. 

     "Well you've been throwing up a lot lately, and, never mind, maybe i'm just being paranoid because of the whole Natalie thing." I need to tell him. 

     "Yes." I whispered.

     "Yes what, Anna?" He muttered, pain clearly lacing his every word.

     "I'm pregnant." I said, shame washing over me. My god, we should have used protection. I wasn't prepared for what he said next. 

     "Is it mine?" 

     "What? Are you kidding me? Of course it's yours! You're the only person I've slept with." I said with fury. 

     When he didn't say anything, i picked my head up off of his chest and looked at him.

      He stared at me, shock flowing over his every feature. His body was completely rigid, and he was breathing short, shallow, breaths. He was terrified. 

     Finally, he's body relaxed, and he pushed me off of him, and untangled our hands. He got up off of the bed and shrugged his shirt on.

      "Nathan?" No response, he just kept getting dressed. "Nathan where are you going? Nathan! What are you doing! No, Nathan, please don't leave, please...please don't do this to me..."

     My will broke the second he stepped out the door and closed it behind him. He left. He found out I was pregnant and he left me. 

     I pulled my knees up towards my chest and held on for dear life as the tears rocketed down my cheeks with a vengeance.  How could he just walk out on me like that? He said he had stayed for natalie, why am I so different? Maybe he's worried that I'm lying. But i'm not, so he'll come around. He has to come around. 

      There was a soft knock on the door, hoping it was Nathan, i waited until the door pushed open. My features fell as i realized it was just Chelsea. 

     "Why did Nathan just storm out of your room?" She asked. Oh great, now i'll lose her tonight too. better to just get it over with I guess.

     "Because I told him I was pregnant." 

     "Well why would you do that? That's no reason for him to get mad. It's not like it's his kid." She said, rolling her eyes.

      I just stared at her. 

     "Oh, god, Anna. It's not, please tell me it's not." She pleaded. 

     "It is." My numbness was spreading over me, putting everything in perfect clarity. Nathan never loved me, Nathan never would love me. I was just an easy lay, letting him keep coming back for more, and now, i've royally screwed up both of our lives. 

     "When did this start? Was it just a one time thing?" She asked, coming to sit on the corner of my bed. 

     I recounted everything that had happened and she just stared with a blank look on her face. Once my story was finished she let out a breath I hadn't realized she had been holding the entire time. 

      "Well what're you going to do?" She asked, exhausted. "I can't believe he just walked out on you, that's not cool."

     "I know Chels, and I don't know..." I whispered, fingering a loose string on my sheet. " I think I'm going to get an abortion."