The Only Reason

Chapter 17

The boys are staying the night for a few days since we want to be together as much as possible.Their families will get them for a few days and they'll come back for about a week,spend a few more days with their families,then they'll leave.

"Jewels,hurry up and bring the blankets,"Mikey yelled as I about fell down the stairs.They made the smallest one go get all the pillows and blankets in the house and we had a lot.

"Thanks,because of you guys,I about fell down the stairs,"I snapped.

"Hey,you had to do it fair and square,"Mikey protested.

"You made us all race knowing that I would lose,"I stated.

"Then why did you join if you knew you were going to lose,"he questioned.

"Because you said it was either race or be tackled by naked boys while they attempted to butt fuck me,"I said.

"Fine,whatever,now lets start the movie,"Mikey yelled as Ash clicked play.

"Guys,this movie is stupid,I've seen it already,"I whined.

"But we haven't,so we're going to watch it,"Ash said.

"I'm warning you,the movie is awful and you won't be able to finish it because it's that bad,"I said.

We watched the movie,but half way through,they turned it off.

"I told you it was awful,"I stated.

"Let's do something so I can forget that awful shit,"Mikey said.

"Hey,don't swear,"Ash scolded.

"Shut the fuck up,lets have a nerf gun war,"Mikey yelled.

"Me and Jewels are on a team,"Cal said.

"Fine,us three against you two,just to warn you,I'm the best at this game,"Mikey boasted.

"You haven't seen me play,so may the best team win,"I said.We then took off in separate directions.Me and Cal hid behind a bush and took a moment to figure out what to do.

"I've never seen you with a nerd gun,are you good,"Cal asked.

"I'm decent,"I said.What he didn't know is that I learned how to shoot a gun a few years ago and had really good aim.

"Okay,well you stay back and I'll shoot,just hide and don't get caught,"he said as we quickly moved forward.I saw Ash wondering by himself,but before I could shoot,Cal got him.

"Okay,now lets find Mikey and Luke,"Cal said.Just as he said that,someone shot,but missed us and we quickly hid behind the trashcan and a bush.

"Dammit Luke,I should've just took the shot,"Mikey yelled.Cal shot and got Luke,but Mikey got him right after.

"Fuck,sorry Jewels,but you're on your own now,"Cal said.

"Don't worry Cal,I bet I'll win,"I shouted to him.

"Oh yeah,I bet you 50 bucks that I'll win,"Mikey yelled.

"150,I'm sure I'll win,"I said.

"Deal,prepare to lose 150 dollars,"he yelled.I quickly ran to the side of the house and around the other side behind Mikey.I went right behind him as I watched him pop up from behind his spot and look for me.

"Hey Mikey,"I yelled behind him.As he turned around I shot him and when he shot back,I ducked and rolled out from my spot and shot him once more,got up and ran while I kept shooting him.

"Dammit,you have really good aim,"Mikey said as he gave me my money.

"Yeah,why didn't you tell us that,"Ash said.

"I picked a good partner,"Cal said as he hugged me.

"Are you a sniper or something,"Luke said.

"No,I learned how to shoot an actual gun a few years ago,"I said.

"Can you teach me,"Mikey said.

"I don't trust you with a nerf gun,so how do you expect me to trust you with an actual one,"I said as he shrugged.

We all went back inside and layed down.They gave me the couch while they slept on floor and chairs.Once they shut up,I was able so fall asleep.

I woke up to someone falling on me as I groaned at all the weight.I opened my eyes to see Luke saying on top of me.

"What the fuck,I was sleeping you know,"I groaned.

"I know,but we wanna do a live stream and you're in the way,"Luke said.

"There's other places you can do it,"I whined.

"We wanna do it here,so get your ass up so we can start,"he said as Cal set down the laptop.

"Fine,but keep it down,"I said as I walked to my room and wrote some songs.It was something I did in my free time.After about and hour,the boys came up and said they were done,but when they saw I finished a song,they wanted to hear it.

"It still needs a bit of work,so don't judge too much,"I said as I started strumming.

"She said she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room
She cries
The way she feels inside
Is too much for her
When you got is these four walls
It's not that hard to feel so small
Or even exist at all
How come no one heard her when she said
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone
Gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
She doesn't think she's beautiful
'Cause no one's ever told her so
And the demons that she hides
Are all she knows
Maybe she could fall in love
With someone in her life that she could trust
And tell her she's enough
Have someone tell she's enough
How come no one heard her when she said
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
When all you got are these four walls
It's not that hard to feel so small
When all got is these four walls
It's not that hard to feel so small
All she wanted was to be in love
All she wanted was to be in love
So what does it take
Maybe it's not too late
How come no one heard her when she said
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone
Gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone
Gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone"

"I liked it,but it was so depressing,"Cal said.

"Well,you know what they say,you write how you feel,"I said as the boys just looked at me on shock.It was true,I just wanted to die,then I could be with my dad and I wouldn't have to live in a house alone while Cal was away.