Meh #2

Should I?

If I were to pour out my heart.
Let the dam break.
Would it influence your decision?
Would it make you feel pressured?
I don't want to make you feel pressured.
I wanna fight for you.
But I want you to be happy.
I don't know how to fight.
If its influence your decision maybe I shouldn't let the dam break.

Would it change things?
Would it make things better?
Would it make them worse?
Would it make you happy?

I'm nervous.
I was waiting for a day.
That day was coming.
Maybe not so much anymore.
I'm anxious.
I'm scared.
I don't know what to do.
But I'll keep those demons from you.
It's for your own good.

I'll wait for you.
I'll await your decision.
So tell me, should I let these feelings run free?
Pour out my heart to you?
Or stay hidden until I know the final decision.
So that I am safe.
So that if its not in my favor.
Then you won't be pressured.
You won't feel any burdens.

Love me for me.
Not out of pity.
Love me for me.
Not because they told you to.
Love me for me.
Love my scars.
Love my demons.
Be my savior.
But maybe that's too much.
I'll be your saviour.
I'll be there to catch you when you fall.
Love me for me.
Love me for what I am.
Not because the other one left.
Keep me safe.
But be prepared for these monsters inside my head.

So tell me please.
Should I pour out these feelings?
Or await your decision?