I'm new at life, sorry.

You sure?

- Where are you? – I speak with Justin on the phone.

- I’m home.

- What? Why?

- Because! They were all kids Jen.

- You missed the fun… Wait, I’m coming. - I hang up and go to Justin’s.

I go into his house and we stay in his bedroom. We sit on his bed.

- I need a pot. - I say.

- What? No, you’re only 16.

- Are you serious? You always let me! What happened to you in that beach?

- Nothing! I just realized that I’m 20 and you’re only 16… You shouldn’t do every single thing I do.

- Justin I only said I want a pot. Is that bad?

- No… - He gets up and makes one. He hands it to me and lights it up.

- Why did you leave so soon? – I ask sucking the pot.

- I don’t know… People were too young…- We stay in silence.

- When did you lose your virginity? - Justin looks at me.

- When I was 16. – That leaves me left wondering. My birthday is in one month. I’ll be 17. And still a virgin. – Don’t think that much about it Jen. Do it when you’re prepared. When you’re in love.

- You were in love?

- No, that’s why I’m telling you. – I finish the pot and lie in the bed. Justin is in my left.

- Would you do me a favor? – I ask looking at his eyes intensely.

- Nope. - He answers. - I know what do you want and no, I can’t. Sorry, you’re my friend.

- That’s why! – I say getting up.

- No Jen.

- Please… We’ve known each other for like 10 years… - I start touching his abs.

- No… - I put my mouth near his ear.

- Please… - He sighs and denies with his head. I kiss his neck.

- No… Jen, stop. – I don’t answer him and I keep kissing his neck. – If we’re going to do this we need protection. – I smile and he gets up and starts searching. He finds a condom and looks at me. – Are you sure? – I nod and swallow.