I'm new at life, sorry.

Let's screw up my life a little. Fun game.

 - My mom is home and she hasn't called me.- I get to the couch with my cell phone in my hand.

- She will remember, don't worry.- I sit near him.

- So... what are we gonna do? - I ask, I need to know the answer.

- I think we should stay just like we are now...

- What do you mean?

- You know... Getting together just time to time...

- You mean friends with benefits? - I say not too convinced.

- Yeah... Something like that.- He looks at me.- I won't hurt you, I promise.

- No... Justin... the problem is that I like you, a lot.- I confess remarking the " a lot ". He looks at my eyes.

- I'm going to be your teacher for three months, maybe we can try when I'm done.

- But I don't want to wait three months!

- Jen is not that big deal! We can meet here everyday! - He holds my hands, I get goosebumps - We just have to act like nothing happens between us, we can do that, trust me.

- Okay.- I hold his face gently with my hands and I kiss him, we melt in the kiss and then he separates from me.

- I'm going to call your school, I'm going to get the job.- He goes upstairs and I lie on the couch. I turn on MTV, they're puting Jersey Shore, I don't change of channel. After about 10 minutes Justin comes to the living room.

- Turn it off.- He says approaching the couch.

- What? No! I like it! - I say refusing and turning around to get more comfortable.

- You like that crap of reality show?? Come on Jen, you're better than that, turn it off.- I move my head from side to side refusing, he comes closer to me running and jumps on me trying to get the remote control, I bite his hand and try to get him off the couch, he falls and I laugh, but he just stares at the floor. I get scared.

- Oh my god Justin, are you okay? - I get up and he looks at me. His nose is bleeding.- What the fuck Justin... - I don't understand anything, he only fell, he didn't hit anything...

- Shit...- He says getting up.

- What the fuck happened.- I ask following him to the bathroom.

- You don't need to know.

- I wanna know, did you snort any drug???- I look at him through the mirror, he doesn't answer.- How long have you been doing this? - I can't believe it. I can't believe he hasn't told me anything. 

- You better don't know Jen...- His bleeding stops and he gets out of the bathroom, we go upstairs.

- Why didn't you tell me? 

- I didn't want you to be like me...- We stop walking in the middle of his bedroom. 

- What type of drug? - I don't even know if I want to know.

- Jen, I'm not going to tell you anything. It's for your best.- He turns around and lies on his bed.

- Oh, yeah? And what is for yours?! - I scream.- You made me thought that I liked you but you were just high?! You're just high all the fucking time, Justin?! - He gets up and approaches me. I continue shouting at him.- You fucking told me that you just "grew up" - I say ironically - but the only fucking grown up here right now is me.- I'm turning around to walk away when Justin grabs my arm and kisses me. I separate from him.

- Now, this is the Jen I like. So agressive.- He grins.

- You're just high Justin, let me go.- I try to go away but he grabs my arm harder.- Fuck, Justin, you're hurting me, stop! - I look into his eyes. That's not the Justin I knew, he has changed, his look has changed, he's looking at me possesive, I can't believe I'm getting scared of my own best friend, he grabs me harder and harder, he won't stop.- Justin, please.- I beg him, he still look right to my eyes not leting me go, tears start to fall down my face.