I'm new at life, sorry.

Messed up

- Justin!- I scream trying to make him stop tickling me. I can't stop laughing, we almost fell out of the bed.- Seriously, one of us has to go to school, stop it! 

- You know you want to stay, come on let's go picnic!- He stops tickling me and looks at me. 

- We can't. Not today. 

- Okay okay, but we have like...- Passing his arm over my head he checks his phone that is on the nightstand.- An hour.

- Oh God... I'm going to be so tired... Why did you have to wake me up at 5 a.m?

- I've already told you! I couldn't sleep!

- Yeah but I could! You should have let me!- I'm not mad but I pretend to be.

- If you're going to get mad... I'm not going to wake you up with kisses never again.- He teases. 

- Whoa, okay, okay. If you wake me up in some other kind of way... we will not have sex. Simple as that. Take it or leave it.- I smile.

- Such a good little dealer we have here...- He kisses me on my lips and then goes down to my neck. I moan.- Y'like that..?- He keeps kissing me.- Better than that guy...?- I stop him.

- George...?- He nods.- You don't... you don't have to worry about him Justin... It's all an act...

- That sound you just made when I kissed you... It's the same sound you made when he kissed you... Not everything is an act, I get it. I just want to make sure you forget about him when you are with me, okay? 

- He's not in my mind when I'm with you, Justin. Never. You should know that.- I hold his face and kiss him oh so sweetly. We smile and keep making out. 

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- Meet me at the gym.- George whispers in my ear when I'm leaving my books in my locker. 

- Wha..?- I turn around but he's gone. I sigh and head to the gym. 

I see George sitting on the ground looking at his phone. He sees me and gets up. 

- What are we doing here? 

- Come.- He takes my hand and we get in one of the changing rooms, it's empty but I'm sure someone is going to have to come downstairs to get changed any time. 

- If you just brought me here to kiss, do it quickly and for 5 seconds because, first, I don't want to, and second, no one is watching. 

- Cut the shit Jen.- He takes me with both of his hands on my back and pushes me to the nearest wall.- I know this whole thing turns you on. Kissing when your boyfriend isn't watching, kissing when the entire school is watching, all of this turns you on. 

- Shut up, what are you trying to do?- I don't move, but his face gets closer to mine and I can smell his breath, mint, no, he smoked a cigarette and then he had a mint. 

- I'm not going to kiss you. 

- What?

- Right now, I'm not going to kiss you. We're going to be this close for like... what, 30 seconds? and then, you are going to kiss me. 

- Wh--Why would I do that?- I'm so confused. But he is smirking. 

- Because you like me. 

- I think I made it clear that I don't like you. I'm attracted to you and for God's sake stop!- I push him away.- You know I have a boyfriend! Why are you fucking doing this?!- He stays quiet for a minute but then he speaks.

- Because I've been in love with you since you came to school!- His breathing is heavy, his hands covers his face for good 5 seconds and then he looks at me. With that face. With that innocent face of his.- I know you have a boyfriend. I know your life is complicated but so is mine. My parents are going through a divorce, my dog died just last week, one of my best friends betrayed me... But there you are, thinking you are the only one who has a rough life. Let me tell you that you are not alone. I've been observing you. How you paint and draw and write in every class, I don't know what you are doing but I know you're expressing yourself, somehow, and I know that it relaxes you because when you finish it, you smile, and then you start over again. I've seen that you sigh every time someone calls you, because you're so fucking exhausted. Well I am too. But I know that I'm in love with you and I've been pushing that thought away for a long time now, but I can't--I can't stop observing you. It might sound creepy but--

- No.- I feel a tear falling down my cheek.- Fuck.- I whipe it away.- Why do you do this to me. I'm in love with someone else--

- I know Jen! but when you said you were attracted to me I--

- Don't, seriously George, please.- I stay silent and walk out of the changing room but then, I turn my head to the left.- Justin. 

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Not really convinced with this chapter, but hey! I updated! lol tell me what you think, I dont care about the votes that much for now.. Just want to know if i should continue lol thanks!