Brown Haired Beauty // Joshler | ✔️

10: Me Too.

Tyler's P.O.V.

I sighed, terrified of what his reaction to what I was about to say. I looked to the ground and took a deep breath.

"Look, Joshua, I know we've only been together for a few days, but I have a confession. I wanted to say that you're the one I want to be with, I'm positive. You're the one I've been waiting for all this time. The entire time I've known I was gay was the time I've been waiting for someone like you."

I could see Josh looking at me intently. I looked him in the eyes for a moment before continuing. "The truth is, I don't know what I would be doing right now if I never came to your door. You're the reason I'm happy right now. Before that night at the bar, I was a wreck, honestly. You made me smile. You made me feel like I was worth something. You made me try and live. I've never told anyone this before, but I'm depressed. I wear sweaters because I'm ashamed of my scars. You're the only one I've ever trusted with that. Not even Ash or Kenzie know that about me. I..." I wasn't able to finish right then and there. I had to take a small break before finally being able to spit out the words I've been meaning to say this entire time.

I heard Josh sigh and I looked up to meet his eyes. "Ty, I'm not making you do this. You don't have to say it if you don't want to."

I shook my head at his request. "No, I want to do this. I have to do this." I closed my eyes to try and calm down. My heart was beating as fast as a freight train. I couldn't possibly relax with what I was going to say. "Joshua, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't do this right now."

"It's okay. I completely understand. Just don't pressure yourself to do it. I'm sure not pressuring you. All I know is that you're one of the best and genuinely kindest person I've ever met. Oh, God. Here comes my spill. Ever since I've met you, my life completely turned upside down. I didn't know I had any attraction at all towards guys, but you changed my perspective. You're amazing. You're adorable. But Ty, I had no idea you felt that way about yourself. You really shouldn't do that to yourself. You were made to live an amazing life. Not one that you felt that you weren't meant to have." Josh reached his arms out and I clasped onto him tightly. A single tear fell from my eye and I shut my eyes tightly to allow to slip down my cheek.

"Thank you. I don't think anyone's showed this much support for me in anything." That was about all I could say. Nothing more.

"It's no problem. Anything for you. I would give all I have just so that you would feel the same way about yourself as I feel about you. I feel only good feelings for you. You're perfect in my eyes. You're a dork, but I love that about you." He paused and there was a silence between us. A smile curved his lips upwards, which made mine do the same. His smile was contagious, I loved it. He completely changed my life for the better. "Tyler Joseph, I have something to say. Something I've never told anyone outside of my family. I love you, Ty. I have since the moment you came to my door. I love the way you call me Joshua. I love how shy you are. I love the way you smile. And I love how smooth your voice sounds. I love you."

I couldn't say anything. I froze with a smile on my face, spread from cheek to cheek. He shocked me with his words. Not once did anyone say anything like that to me. My mouth was moving, but no sound came out other than he sound of my voice cracking. All I could do in that moment was lean forward and connect his lips with mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck. After a moment, I rested my chin in his shoulder and whispered in his ear. Finally, I was able to speak. "I love you so much, you have no idea. And not one person I've dated did I feel this way about them. You're the first and only one. Joshua, I love you. That's all I need to say."

Josh squeezed me tightly and I returned. He was so warm. And the fact that I knew he felt exactly the same added to it.

"My god, Ty. I didn't know. I fell for you. It was amazing. The journey to today has been incredible with you. I'm hopelessly in love with you. You deserve to know that."

"You're amazing, Joshua. Just amazing. I have no other words right except I love you so much that I can't fathom it."

"Me too, Tyler. Me too."

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~ukuleletyler