His Tears

Chapter 36

Eira

"Jungkook" Mahina kong sinabi at bahagya akong lumayo kay Jimin.

"Labas lang ako." Hindi ko na pinansin yung sinabi ni Jimin dahil nakatingin padin ako kay Jungkook ngayon.

"Nakalimutan mo ata na may lakad tayo ngayon." Bahagya siyang ngumiti pero halata namang fake smile. god! Oo nga pala.

"I'm sorry." Bulong ko.

"Nah, okay lang." Ngumiti siya sa'kin, "So I guess, next time nalang ulit." Lalabas na sana siya pero tinawag ko siya.

"I'm really really sorry. Nawala sa isipan ko." Paghingi ko ng tawad. Yumuko ako ng bahagya, hiyang hiya na ako kay Jungkook. Ang sama sama kong tao. I don't deserve a guy like him.

Lumapit siya sa'kin tsaka niya inangat 'yung baba ko.

"I said it's okay. As long as masaya ka na, masaya na ako." Unti unting tumulo ang mga luha sa mata ko. Why is he like this?

"Yah, don't cry. Okay lang talaga sa'kin. Pwede pa naman sa susunod na araw. Tsaka okay lang sa'kin kahit hindi tayo matuloy." Ngumiti siya sa'kin. Mas lalo lang akong naiyak.

"Why are you like this?" I said while sobbing.

"What? I'm just being a good guy. A guy who would do everything for the girl he loves." He chuckled. He's too good to be true. He doesn't deserve me.

"Jungkook." Sabi ko tsaka ko siya niyakap. "I'm so sorry."

"Are you saying sorry because you forgot that we have date today or you're saying sorry because you can't give me a chance?" He didn't hug me back. Alam kong nasasaktan siya. Alam ko 'yon.

Hindi ako sumagot. Patuloy padin ako sa pagiyak sa dibdib niya.

"I know Eira. You can't love me again. I know that. Just be happy. Masaya na ako kapag nakikita kitang masaya. Your happiness is my happiness too. Just don't forget that I love you."

I bit my lower lip, "Sorry." I sniffed. Dahan dahan niya ako tinulak papalayo sakanya.

"Stop saying sorry. I already said that it's okay." Ngumiti siya. "Ah, una na ako." Tumango siya sa'kin.

"See you." He waved his hand and he smiled at me. I felt so down. I don't even deserve his love.

"Eira." Jimin called me.
"You hugged him." Sabi niya.

"I'm not explaining, Jimin. If you really trust me, I don't have to explain what you saw. Understand me please. Just this time." I said flatly.

"You're not going to explain?! The hell Eira? Bakit hindi mo ipapaliwanag yung nakita ng mga mata ko?!" Sigaw niya. Duh ang liit kaya ng mata neto.

"Jimin, please. Not now. I'm tired." Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko, para kahit papaano makapahinga ako saglit man lang.

"Tired of hugging Jungkook." He said sarcasticly.

"Jimin stop, will you? Stop acting as if I am your property." I rolled my eyes heavenwards. Pagod na ako, tapos dadagdag pa itong si Jimin.

Lumapit siya sa'kin tsaka niya ako niyakap.

"I'm sorry." Bulong niya sa tenga ko. He's hugging me softly but tightly. Basta yun, mahigpit siya but he's doing it gently.

He kissed my head, "Mauna na ako. Salamat sa oras." Humiwalay na siya sa yakap at tsaka lumabas na siya ng bahay.

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Jimin's driving his way home. Pagkarating niya sa bahay nila, agad niyang pinarada ang kotse niya sa kanilang garahe.

He entered their house and he saw her.

"Jimin. Where were you?" Tanong ng dalaga sa binata.

"Stop asking, I'm tired." Sambit ni Jimin habang nagtatanggal ito ng sapatos.

"I told you can't see Eira anymore! You are so stubborn! Parehas tayong mapapahamak sa ginagawa mo." She shouted. Jimin's pissed. He doesn't want talking about that thing anymore.

"Shut up. You're annoying." Sinalampak ni Jimin ang kaniyang sarili sa mahabang sofa.

"You can't be with her. You can't love her anymore! You can't see her anymore!" Sigaw uli ng dalaga.

"I can be with her, I can love her, and I can see her. I can." Jimin gritted his teeth.

"Jimin, huwag mo ng paasahin si Eira sa wala. Kawawa 'yung tao. Iiwanan mo lang din naman siya, please. You're just hurting her and yourself." She said.

"I told you to stop. Shut up." Jimin closed his eyes and he bit his lowet lip. He's thinking what she said. She's right. Jimin said in his mind.

Tama nga naman siya, iiwanan niya lang ulit si Eira. Sasaktan sa ikalawang pagkakataon. Iiwanan sa ikalawang beses. Jimin hates himself. He doesn't want to hurt Eira but he chose to hurt Eira. He hates himself because he can't love Eira in a few months. Kaya habang wala pa ang araw na sasaktan niya si Eira, he's spending the time with her.

He's going to hurt Eira for the second time, he's going to leave Eira for the second time.

And that's because of

"Korene. One last time, please." He whispered.

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