Caught Up, In Neverland [JM]

[Chapter 11- Forgive Me]

[Chapter 11- Forgive Me]

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He drinks more than he should.

He drinks to numb the pain that seems to be splitting his heart into pieces. His drinking began when Jimin first plunged the thorn into his chest, but now the thorns seem to continuously stab him.

He resorted to underage drinking to help avoid the pain all together. It's quite sad to see that he had turned out this way... That because of his drinking problem, he had turned abusive.

To both his loved ones, and his friends...

The remaining of his friends asked him to stop- to put the bottles down and think for a bit. Of course he didn't listen and only thought of himself- only thought of the pain that seemed to only grow underneath his ribcage as time went on.

"Jimin wouldn't have wanted this..." The boy mutters to himself and he feels another ache spread throughout his chest. He grits his teeth and quickly tilts his head to drink the remainder of the liquor in the bottle to ease the pain. "Screw it", he says bitterly as he feels his stomach churn from the large amounts of alcohol he practically inhaled.

Suddenly he feels a presence stand behind him and he sighs, already irritated because he already knows who it is. He slowly turns and sways as he faces the younger in a slouched form.

"What do you want, Jungkook? Came here to tell me to stop again?" He slurs as he watches the raven haired boy standing a mere couple of feet in front of him.

"Yes... and I came to check up on you", Jungkook replies softly and the other rolls his eyes while grabbing another drink from the stand next to him.

"I'm obviously fine. Now leave."

"No", Jungkook defiantly says as his form stiffens- already preparing the impact.

"Jeon Jungkook. I live here and I am asking you to leave calmly. Go away before I lose my patience", the older grits out and the other takes a step towards him instead.

"Yoongi, please... hear me out-"

"I've always heard you loud and clear! Leave me alone!" Yoongi yells and he takes a threatening step towards him. His eyes pierce the youngers' ferociously and he takes another step towards him to get the other to back away.

"I can't leave you, Yoongi! Even if I wanted to, I can't. Our friendship means too much for me to just walk away..." Jungkook says as his eyes begin to tear up. His bottom lip begins to tremble as he takes a step closer to his drunk friend- wanting to console him somehow. "Yoongi, I'm just worried about you... you aren't yourself-"

"THIS IS ME", Yoongi yells and he shoves his friend away, causing his back to hit onto the wall behind him. "I AM ME. THIS IS WHO I AM AND ACCEPT IT", Yoongi yells as he grabs Jungkook by the collar. He pulls and pushes the slightly younger boy into the wall, causing the back of his head to smash against the plaster.

"Yoongi... Stop, this isn't you", Jungkook pleads slowly as his eyes begin to shed tears. Yoongi sways harshly as he loses his balance, but he regains his footing after some time. Jungkook takes this as his chance and runs, slamming into the older's body as he wraps his arms around him tightly.

"Yoongi you're like my brother... please come back to me", Jungkook pleads with a cry as he continues to hug the elder. He just wants to see his old friend back... hear his calm voice and mess around with him; just like how it used to be.

"Get off of me!!" Yoongi only yells in response and he shoves the boy off of him. Because of Yoongi's strong push, Jungkook trips and falls onto the floor- his side smashing into a nearby table. The struggling boy finally falls onto the floor with a grunt, his face scrunching from the excruciating pain in his left side.

"You deserve it!" Yoongi spits out and he pulls out the nearby chair from the table. Jungkook's eyes widen in response as he watches one of his closest friends pull the chair over his head- threatening to smash it onto the younger.

"Yoongi!! Stop you'll kill me this time!!" Jungkook screams in fear and he closes his eyes as he hears a loud smash. He can feel his form tremble as he slowly opens his lids to see that the chair is smashed into pieces, mixed in with other pieces of broken glass. Jungkook's eyes move slowly to the wall to see that the mirror that at one point hung from a screw, is now in pieces- barely hanging by a single thread.

"Y-Yoongi-"

"GET OUT", the drunk one yells and Jungkook quickly tries to stand up. He holds his side with a pained expression as he faces his friend, trying to reason with him again.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN!" Yoongi screams and Jungkook's eyes dilate in fear as he runs out, tears sliding down his cheeks in the process.

Yoongi watches his friend run out of his home while spamming the door behind him. His face remains unfazed by the entire thing and his eyes glance around the room.

Everything's a complete mess. Papers, broken glass, pieces of wood and other objects are scattered everywhere. Yoongi doesn't seem to care though- his eyes already showing a lost of interest in the world around him.

He looks down at the floor and finally notices the bottle he had dropped from when he was arguing with Jungkook. Pissed and unbelievably angry, he stomps onto the bottle and yells foul words and other curses.

He curses the world and everything that it had to bring. He curses himself for keeping others close to his heart and he curses himself for drinking too much.

Everything around him sways violently and he reaches out to hold onto something to steady himself. His hand reaches towards the wall and he leans against it, his breathing becoming harsher as the seconds tick by. He has the sudden urge to vomit, but nothing seems to come out. His thoughts finally return to the boy he had kicked out earlier and he begins to realize what he had done.

"Kookie..." Yoongi mutters the boys pet name and he falls to the floor as the walls continue to spin around him. His eyes tear up as he remembers all the horrible things he had done to the poor boy and he drags his body across the wooden floor.

"Jungkookie... come back... I'm sorry", Yoongi slurs almost inaudibly and he slams his fist against the floor. Waves of nausea hit him like a brick and he finally vomits- blood, alcohol, and other toxins exiting his body at once.

I did this to myself... I wanted to die, and this is what happens...

His thoughts echo loudly as his vomiting stops for a minute or two. He notices how his body begins to shake uncontrollably and how his muscles begin to spasm- as if they had a mind of their own. He can no longer move as he vomits blood once again, his body seemingly destroying itself because of the harsh alcohol that's destroying his organs.

"Jungkook...", Yoongi gasps out for one last time as everything begins to turn warp in slow motion. His eyes frantically look around the room and they land on a picture frame hanging on the wall next to the broken mirror.

His thoughts immediately return to his friends as he glimpses at their smiling faces. He mentally apologizes to every single one of them- especially Jungkook.

Jungkook... forgive me for all the terrible things I have said... forgive me for all of the horrible things I have done to you...

I've lost my way... forgive me-

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A/N: I hope you all enjoyed this very short chapter. I apologize if this chapter didn't go into much depth. Like I've said before- I'm lazy

I also want to apologize for any grammar errors! I'll fix those later

Take care and have a great day as always!

~Your Author~