The One And Only Outsider

Chapter 33

Micah's POV (Haven't been there in a long time) :

Let's face it, I miss Garnet. A lot. Seeing her everyday in the halls and in class, kills me. I want to go and talk to her so badly, but I'm afraid she'l shoot me down...like I've been doing to her these past few weeks. I feel absolutely awful about the way I've brushed her off, like she's nothing. All she's been trying to do, is fix what was broken. And to be honest, I don't even think this was all her fault. I mean, I did at first. But now, I'm starting to think that she's been telling the truth this whole time.

Candice and I were at her locker, talking about our science project. It was due in 2 weeks, and we needed to figure out what we were going to do. Through my peripheral vision, I could see Garnet standing at her locker, staring at us with sad eyes.

Part of me wanted to just run up to her and tell her that everything was ok. But, the other part was telling me that she deserved it. The hard part was, I didn't know which side to listen to.

The bell rang, and I told Candice I'd see her later before making my way down the hall. To get to my next class, I had to walk by Garnet. I tried my best not to look her way, or think about her but just knowing she was there, killed me inside. I prayed that she wouldn't say anything, to make it easier to ignore her. But, of course the universe hates me.

Garnet stepped forward, and stopped me in front of her locker.

Garnet: "Hey, Micah. Can I talk to you for a second?"

I wanted to say yes, and talk with her, and work things out. But, the part of me telling me that it was her fault, kept pushing me away and towards my next class.


I turned to face her, bust slowly kept walking backwards to make my way to my next class.

Micah: "Uh, sorry. I've gotta get to class or I'll be late."



I turned back around and kept walking, not waiting for a response.

Garnet: "Ok."



I could barely hear her as I kept going to my next class. Her voice sounded so small and fragile. And it fucking killed me.

All through the rest of the day, all I could think about was how sad Garnet sounded. "Ok." Just that one little word was stuck in my mind. Replaying over and over again every time I thought of her.

After school, I went straight home. I didn't want to take the risk of seeing her again. But when I got home, the only thing, the only one I could think of was her. She just wouldn't get out of my head, no matter what I did. The way she looked, the way she smelled, her smile, her laugh, her voice, the way her eyes shined perfectly when the light hit them right, how sorry she sounded, about the video. Everything.

Around 6 pm, I'd decided that enough was enough. I'd tried everything to get her out of my head, but I just couldn't. I had to talk to her. When I knocked on her front door, her mom answered.

Garnet's Mom: "Hi, Micah."



Micah: "Hi Ms. Reppling. Is Garnet home?"



At first she seemed kind of surprised. I guess it was because of the fight we had a few weeks ago. But, she grinned and stepped out of the way, letting me in.

Garnet Mom: "She's been in her room since she came home."

Micah: "Thank you."

As I made my way to Garnet's room, I thought of what I would say to her. I honestly had no idea. I came to her, door and was about to knock, when I stopped.

What if I shouldn't forgive her? What if she really was into Justin this whole time?

I wanted to turn back and just go home, but before I could stop myself, I'd knocked on the door.