The One And Only Outsider

Chapter 34

Garnet's POV:



I was sitting in the kitchen, doing my homework. Usually I'd go up to my room, but my mom was working a bit later and I hate staying in my room when home alone. There was a knock on the door, it was faint and I exiled barely hear it. It's so soft, it sounded as if it were my imagination. So, I ignored it. But, there was another knock on the door, so I decided to go and see.

The person standing in front of me was the last person I expected to show up at my doorstep. He was standing, faced towards the street, with his hands jammed into his pockets.

Garnet: "Micah?"



Micah whipped around and sent me a faint smile. The look in his eyes, said that his head was swimming with things to say. Yet he was lost for words all the same.

Micah: "Hi."

Garnet: "Hi."



It came out sounding deadpanned, and boring. But on the inside, I was just as lost for words as he was.

Micah: "Can...I come in?"



I stepped from the doorway, and let Micah through. Closing the door behind him, I moved back into his vision with my arms crossed over my chest.

Micah: "Look Garnet, I'm sorry. For everything. For not believing you, for pushing you away, for abandoning you. I feel terrible, and I hope you can forgive me."


Garnet: "You know, it took some time. But I see now, that I shouldn't have to rely on you to feel important and wanted. When you told me that you didn't believe me, I was heart broken. And every time I tried to fix it, and say I was sorry for something that wasn't even my fault, you pushed me away! And I felt like I was nothing. You made me feel like I was nothing. And it took me almost a month now, to see that I don't need to rely on you to make me feel like I'm something. I matter, and you can't make me feel otherwise anymore!"

I was furious. One minute, he's pushing me away and calling me a liar, and the next he's telling me he's sorry. He made me feel worthless when he said those things, and now I don't need him to make me matter.

Micah: "What are you saying?"



Garnet: "That I don't need you to be there, for me to be worth something. I matter, whether you think so or not."


Micah: "Garnet, I didn't mean those things. I was angry, and upset, and I just didn't know who to believe."



Garnet: "I was- or am, or...I don't even know at this point- your girlfriend! I loved you, I trusted you, and I would never do that to you. You knew that! Yet you still believed someone else, over me."



Micah: "There was a video, Garnet! I didn't know what else to believe when it seemed to be right in front of me."


We were both raising our voices at each other now.


Garnet: "Well now, you know the truth! The truth,the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. And the funny part is, that the truth ended up sound exactly like what I said when all of this started!"

Micah: "Look, I know I screwed up! But Garnet, please forgive me."



Garnet: "I don't know if I can, Micah. You didn't seem to want to forgive me when I'd 'screwed up'. So how do you expect me to just up and forgive you?!"



Micah: "I'm begging you Garnet, please just forgive me! I'm sorry."

Garnet: "Maybe sorry's not good enough!"



Micah: "Well, what else do you want me do?! Would you rather me walk out the door right now and not look back?"



Garnet: "No!"