Kaine

Chapter 12

When me and Kaine were dating he didn't like me hugging other guys. He seen me hug Sammy one time and he texted me about it later that afternoon. I've had a crush on Sammy since 5th grade and I was in 10th at the time. Kaine texted me and he said, "I seen you with Sammy." He was referring to me hugging him. He asked me if I like him, and I wasn't going to lie to him. I told him how I've liked him since 5th grade, but if he really wanted me something would have happened by now. He agreed with me.  After the seniors had left I still wasn't hugging guys like Kaine wanted. I tried my best to obey his wishes. The one day I was on the phone with my best friend Eli while I was in art class. It was the end of the year so I didn't have shit to do anyway so I was always leaving class and getting on the phone with Eli. I left class one day and I was still on the phone. I was just going to walk around the school, because I didn't have shit to do. I walked up the stairs and I seen Johnathan. He's been like a brother to me since I've moved to Arkansas in the 3rd grade. He held out his arms when he seen me and I was like love me. I hugged him and then I continued walking. My headphone fell out and I heard foot steps behind me so i turned around. When I did I seen Kaine's friend. I think his name is Dee or Dez? I'm not sure. It's some shit like that I don't know. I didn't think anything of it I kept walking and I seen Ayla and Jessica and I fucked off with them for a while. The next day I was at lunch with Serenity (my wife 😍💦) and I got a text from Kaine. I was excited to get it, because we didn't talk much that day. So here my happy ass was excited as fuck to open up a message that said, "It's over bye." I stared at it for a moment then I asked him what I did. he said who you be hugging on the stairs. My heart dropped man. He dumped me for hugging someone who was like a brother to me. I tried telling him he was like a brother to me, but he wouldn't listen. Serenity looked at me and I asked her if she wanted to walk around and she said yeah. As soon as we got back into the building she asked me what was wrong and i just handed her my phone. She read everything then looked at me. I started balling. She told me she was sorry and that he wasn't worth my tears. I told her I gave him everything. I was so hurt. For the next three days I didn't really talk as much as I do. The only people I texted was Jason, Eli, and Tiara. Literally the day before Kaine dumped me I was 5 days late for my period so i was already kind of freaking out. I ended up telling Kaine about 2 weeks maybe of being late for my period and he told me he checked the condom and I wasn't pregnant. So I believed him, I was still scared though. My period ended up coming two and a half weeks late. That shit was scary as hell. Anyway, I stopped talking to everyone and I basically cut everyone out of my life, simply because he left me. I stayed home one day for my little brothers kindergarten graduation and I just started balling. I couldn't breathe, because I was crying so hard over that boy. It was the first panic attack I've ever had. I didn't know what it was nor how to handle it. I remember Jason telling me I needed to calm down, because at that time I didn't know if I was pregnant or not, and that was long before I told Kaine I hadn't gotten my period yet. Then on top of all of that my best friend Tiara was having really bad health issues and it all just hit me at once. Tiara told me fuck him, that if I was pregnant me and her got this. I love that girl I swear. Even when she was at her worst she was still there for me and my heartbreak.