Kaine

Chapter 13

Before Kaine left for the army in all honesty he was a really big dick. I hate to say it, because I love him so much, but that's how he was acting. Kevion told me before Kaine left he was having trust issues so I don't know maybe that's why he was acting the way he was. Or maybe he just stopped caring about me momentarily. I don't know, I doubt I will ever know. It even went to the point of him calling me out of my name. In all honesty I know Kaine's not that kind of person so I was really in my head over the whole situation. Things were going down hill very fast and for some reason I was still trying my best to hold on despite everyone telling me to let him go. I remember saying how much I hated him, even though I didn't mean it. I've always heard the saying "girls say I hate you to the guys that they love" practically all my life. I always considered that saying complete bullshit, until I met Kaine. I remember right after he dumped me I would  say I hated him all the time, never meaning it of course, but indeed it was said a whole lot. I think that was when I realized just how attached I've become to this man. I didn't know if it was a good thing  or not at the time. Soon after that he was going to come over one last time before he went to the army. For the first time I wasn't scared or nervous to have sex with him. I was ready to be honest and I wanted it to be amazing, because I knew it would be some time before I seen him again. However it never happened. Literally the day before he was suppose to come over everything came crashing down. It was Sunday afternoon and I was in my room. I was texting my friend Sammy. The conversation was about me and him both being bored. The Sammy was like shit come over here then. I told him my mom don't let me do shit so that's why I sneak out. After that we were talking about his job and how he was working at KFC. My mom soon asked me to take down my little brother Aj's ( Aka Bug) hair. My two little brothers have long hair. So I was taking down Bugs hair when my mom came into my room. My mom was being fake as fuck. She was in there talking to me which she never did at the time. Then she hit me with the "What you doin'?" Like and I was like what the fuck it look like I'm doing?  So she stares at me for a moment then goes, "Can Tommy ( my little brother) play temple run on your phone?" I knew she was about to go through my shit, because the way she presented herself and talked was completely fake as fuck. So I said sure. Now my phone was on the other side of the room charging. I went to get up and get it, because I knew Sammy texted and I wanted to clear my messages before she got there. I went to get up and my mom ran across my room. Like this bitch fucking ran!! I was like oh my god. So I sat back down on my bed knowing she was about to look at my messages. I seen her finger swipe down to read my message and I was like yup it's over with. She came back in my room and was like "WHO THE FUCK YOU BE SNEAKING OUT TO SEE?!" Me being me I was like Oh nah mom I was fronting. I just wanted to look cool you know. Then i reach for my phone. She pulled her hand back and was like "No fuck that you're not getting this phone back." At this point I knew I was logged into my fake account that I'd been texting Kaine on. My mindset was on getting that phone back, because I didn't want her to see me and Kaines messages. I went to grab my phone out of her hand while saying how unfair she's being. Then she smacked me in the face. My mom has a habit of hitting people in the face for no damn reason. So I was like "Yo don't touch me." So my mom being the natural born  smart ass that she is she kept hitting me in the face. The third time she did it I was like fuck this and I pushed her away from me and I yelled, "Stop fucking hitting me!" My brother Andre who was sitting on the couch started busting out laughing. He was like, "Margaret what are you doing?" He thought I was playing I guess, but I knew I wasn't.  Long story short we ended up outside somehow and we just went at it in the front yard. Andre came outside and grabbed me, because I was beating my moms ass. I mean I do feel bad for doing that to my mom, but I mean it was pent up anger from all the shit she's done to me in the past. Anyway Andre grabbed me and I pushed him away from me and he tried to grab me again so I punched him as hard as I could in his jaw. Then I was like "Get the fuck back!" I ran into the house, because mom did and she still had my phone, by the time I got there she had locked her bedroom door and was on the phone with my dad. So me being the hard headed person I was I was like fuck this shit. So I went to my room grabbed some clothes and shoes and jumped out of the window. All I heard was my mom yelling "Catch that bitch." I darted into the woods. I'm not the fastest runner so if they were going to catch me they were going to have to find me first. I changed my clothes in the woods then I went to these old peoples house down the road. They let me use their phone and I called Kaine and told him to delete our messages. I told him I loved him and then I went back to the woods. My parents finally caught up with my ass when I was crossing over barbed wire fence and got stuck. I forced my self over the fence. The ground looked solid, but as soon as I jumped down it was straight mud. I ended up losing my Vans in that shit. That's the only reason mom caught up with me, because I had gotten stuck in the knee high mud. When I finally got out of it she was close behind me and I was like fuck it I'm finna fight this hoe again. But, she was closer than I thought, because before I could turn around this bitch had me by my hair. Back then my hair was ling and thick there was no pulling my head back and getting her off me.  I legit fought her the entire time there. She would say something and I would come back with a smart ass remark full of profanity and she would hit me in the back of the  head and I would swing on her hitting her where ever I could. She had my head down so I couldn't see where I was hitting I only felt. After that my mom said all she ever did was be there for me and I was like, "Oh yeah they why don't you know I tried to kill myself?" She was like "Bitch no you didn't" and I laughed at her, "A good mom? Bitch no." When they finally got me home my dad beat the fuck out of me, but I mean I deserved it. I should have never fought my mom like that EVER! Mom said something and I was like, "But you let me text Kaine on your phone." She called me a liar even though I was telling the truth. She ended up attacking me, because I was telling my dad everything. But he didn't believe me. Funny thing is she decides to attack me when she knew I couldn't fight back.😂 Us fighting has come up once after all of that was said and done and she said she beat my ass me and my brother Andre looked at eachother and busted out laughing. Andre even made the comment about her running into the house from me.