Kaine

Chapter 29

Kaine got on a flight back to Virginia at 2am this morning. I must admit I was crushed, but I'm okay now. He told me that part of being in the army there's a lot of, " I miss you." He has to get use to it and if I'm going to be his girl I have to too. He came over to say good bye and I gave him a teddy bear. He seemed to like it and I sprayed my perfume all over it. We made love one last time. It was amazing. The entire time I was riding him I didn't want to take my eyes away from his. God I miss him already. There were a few times when he hit the right spot and my head would go into his neck. Or he would grab me a certain way and I would hold his back causing my head to go back into his neck. When I was riding him my hair would stick to my face. I was sweating and it was extraordinary. Our noses would rub together a few times . I smiled so much during it. God it was so good. I didn't want to leave him. I kept kissing him before I left. Hell I couldn't help it I don't know when I'll see him again. He is legit the highlight of my summer. I made sure to tell him I loved him. When I was leaving he told me to be safe. I said you too. It's crazy to me that's what he said. He's the one in the army he needs those words more than me. I watched as he drove away from my bed room window. Before his car was out if sight I broke down and stated crying again. I had been crying since he texted me at 11 saying he leaves in 3 hours. I only stopped crying, because I didn't want him to see me cry. I cried all night after he left. This is the third time he's left for the army, but it was the first time he was actually around to help me through it. I finally went to sleep around 2am. I woke up this morning and surprisingly I wasn't sad. Wait. That's a lie. Naturally I'm going to be a little sad. But, I'm okay. Like really okay. Not the "okay" when I tell everyone I'm fine , but I'm really breaking down inside. No like I'm really okay. This isn't a goodbye, but a see you later.