Kaine

Chapter 19

Prom was Saturday April 30th, 2016. Kaine was suppose to come home on the 27th and he he was suppose to come to prom. I was so excited for this until he told me they moved him to a different office and he couldn't come home. When the 27th arrived I was so upset and I kind of took my anger out on everyone. Also I started my period that day so it was a pretty shitty day. I remember getting upset with Kaine, because I missed him then he told me I had an attitude. After that things went fine. At least that's what I was thinking. At 12:18 prom day Kaine texted me and dumped me. He said he loved me and I was a great women, but he's not ready for a relationship and he needs to work on himself. He told me not to be sad, but I mean how could I not be. That man is everything to me, but yet he keeps hurting me and leaving me no matter what I do.  I'm not going to lie I cried, but I mean you can't expect me to not. I cried for a second. Barely anything honestly. Just a few tears that I quickly wiped away. I told Kaine I had to go and that tonight was going to be great and he said okay. I lied though I didn't have to go and I'm sure he knew that. I didn't start getting ready until 3 hours after that. I just sat in my room talking to Jas and my best friend Eli. I finally left for prom ( I'm in the blue on the left in the media off guards are the best!!😊😌) and it was lit as fuck! I was turnt. I did a ton of stuff after that, but what happens on prom night stays on prom night 😂 I went home and I remember just laying there in bed. It hit me a little but that I was single now. I looked at his pictures and videos. Re read our messages and stuff. Where did it all go wrong? I kept asking myself that over and over again. I remember looking at his picture before going to sleep for the night then praying for him. Like I always do. I doubt he does that when he leaves me. I really don't see him hurting over it or even thinking about me after he leaves me. Hell I would be shocked if he even cared honestly. He probably has so many hoes that he can hit up after he leaves me.  Me personally there are plenty of people who want me, hell even my best friend does, but all I want is Kaine. I doubt he sees that. Sometimes I just get in my head thinking. Maybe he just wants to live for a bit before coming back, but then the other side of me is like he doesn't even love you Margaret. I don't know. I guess time will tell. It finally hit me Monday that he was gone. I was walking through the house all alone and No Broken Hearts By Bebe Rexha came on and for some reason I started balling. That's how it usually happens though.