I never told you (LARRY)

Through the dark

A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I have had writers block for this story and I have been writing a new story that I'm hopefully going to be publishing near the end of April.

Harry's POV

I don't understand it, how after everything I had done to him he still wanted to be around me. I ignored him, made him feel useless and yet I had him against the bedroom kissing the hell out of him last night. But for some reason I'm happy about the strings I have Louis tied to, it makes me feel something deep inside of me the power I have over him, the things he is willing to do for me; for love.

"Harry" I hear Taylor calling through the bathroom door, "Are you nearly finished? I need to toilet and you have been in there a while". I roll my eyes letting out a sigh of frustration, if I had learnt anything about Taylor is that she hates to wait, patience isn't her virtue.

"I'm nearly done" I call back as I climb out wrapping a towel round myself before opening the door to see Taylor just stood in her underwear leaning against the wall waiting for me.

"Jesus your a man, what takes you so long in the shower?" She asks, I think its a rhetorical question, though I answer anyway.

"Please myself obviously, doesn't every man?" I ask cocking my eyebrow at her, she shakes her head but I see a small smile on her face.

"Your gross" She laughs, I laugh a long with her.

"But baby with you in those underwear, you make me crazy, I'm sure you wouldn't want me fucking you every chance I get?" I lie to her, she doesn't make me crazy, hell she doesn't even turn me on. Louis does though he gives me all these crazy feelings, feelings I've never felt before.

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"We need to stop doing this" Louis breathes as I attack his neck with kisses, his grip on my shoulders grows a little tighter as I suck on his skin; leaving my mark.

"Why? don't you like it?" I question though I'm not really bothered about the answer as I already know what he is going to say.

"All I mean is why don't we come clean?" Louis says pushing me gently off him, I bring myself to look at him.

"Tell people as in the boys or the whole world?" I question. Now I care about his answer, my heart beat picks up and my palms become sweaty; I'm not ready to tell people.

"The boys first obviously" Louis smiles taking my hands into his.

"NO!" I say rather harshly, Louis furrows his eye brows

"NO?" He repeats

"I can't" I continue "Why cant it be just be our secret?"

"Cause Harry its killing me, having to pretend that you and Taylor doesn't bother me, that I don't love you, that I don't want to be with you." Louis says his voice raising a little.

"it kills me to, you know having to live another life, one without you. One with a perfect girlfriend. One where I have to pretend I'm straight. I lie to Taylor every day, I don't love her, I cant, I cant do that to you. Do you not understand that?" I bite back, we are both hurting and it kills me everyday.

"Then why don't we just end both our misery" Louis suggests, my heart stops, I cant believe what I'm hearing

"Why do you want to tell everyone, when we had the chance to you never did, when we had that meeting with Simon, when we nearly got busted you kept your mouth shut but now you want to tell people. Why should I?" I yell my hands balling into fists.

"Because Harry I don't want you to hurt anymore, me being with Eleanor and you being with Taylor is killing you and need I remind you that she could still out like Kendall" Louis says, I let out a growl, using myself control as much as I can to stop myself lashing out a him.

"Bloody hell, how many times do I have to tell you to leave that alone! I'm not dead, I survived Kendall is doing her time for what she did. why cant you just accept the fact that I'm still alive and really I have been with Taylor for ages and not once has she shown me any signs that could possibly make her like Kendall." I sigh, louis looks at me his eyes glossed over like he is about to cry.

"But Harry every time I look at you I see the scar on your face, I am remind of what that psychotic bitch did to you" Louis says, his voice becoming much calmer.

"Yeah well just be happy I'm alive" I mumble.

"I am, that's I want people to know about us. Harry you wont be alone, I'll be with you." Louis promises.

"You tell me that you sad and lost your way. You tell me that your tears are hear to stay" Louis mumbles his thumb running over my cheek

"Oh I will carry you over, Fire and water for your love, And I will hold you closer, Hope your heart is strong enough, When the night is coming down on you, We will find a way through the dark" Louis kisses me gently on the mouth before pulling away.

"If we are going to do this we are doing it my way" I demand looking louis dead in the eye.

"Deal" He nods before sealing it with one last kiss.