"The greatest thing a friend can do for you is bring you closer to Allah swt"
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Chapter 8
After dinner, Tayabu and Phupujaan left and the rest of us sat around for about 1 hour and then everyone left to go to their own rooms to sleep. After Isha salah me and my munchkins laid down on the bed, since the bed in the guest room was king size we all are able to fit in. In about half an hour they were all asleep, but for me sleep was no where near. I slowly removed Bilal's hand that were kept on my stomach and made my way towards the balcony. Slowly without making any noise I opened the door and sat down on the chair. Glazing at the stars these days after everyone was asleep become my thing. A tear escaped my eyes without me realizing I bitterly wiped it away.
"Why Allah?....why?" I asked looking up at the sky
I want my old life back, I want to wake up to hear Ammi yelling my name. I want to stay up late at night watching those crazy bollywood movies with Abbu. I want to go back and enjoy those hugs my Ammi would give me when I was sad. I want Abbu right now telling me that he will hurt anyone who made his princess cry. I want all that back. I want my Ammi to tell me I will be a beautiful bride. Astugfirrullah (Allah forgive me) it was in my qadr, this was planned by the best planner.
"Ammi Abbu I miss you but insha'allah we will reunite in Jannah" I say looking at the stars
I made a promise to myself that I will be the best parent to my siblings. I will raise them the way Ammi and Abbu would want them to be raised. I will make them get the best education and help them become what they dream of becoming. I won't let them sacrifice themselve. I will become their Ammi and Abbu if I need to.
I slowly raise my hand up and make a quick dua "Ya Allah please whoever is my soulmate is, may he be a person who would care for my siblings and help me raise them....Ameen"
I remember Tayabu told me I will met him tomorrow in the afternoon Insha'Allah. His name reminded me of someone from highschool. He was a senior to me, I doubt he ever noticed me. I had a tiny crush on him thinking back it was so stupid. I shake that thought and soon I feel a vibration on my lap. It's 10:55pm and I know who exactly it is. It's my best friends from high school, our friendship is as strong as it can be. They are the best thing that happened to me, because of them I became closer to Allah swt.
Everyone in high school knew us as the hijabi girls, but we called ourselves "Sistahs". Altogether we were 5 hijabi girls. Me, Zainab, Sumaira, Iqra, and Hira with me being the oldest by few months and Hira being the smallest in age and height. I connected with all of them very quick but if you asked who I am closest to from all of them is Zainab. She knows almost all my secrets and I know all her's. Without these girls my life would have been worser if it isn't worse now.
"Asalamwalakum" I greet them
"Walaikumsalam" All of them greet me
"Did the kids sleep?" Zainab askes me
"Yeah they did I am at my phupu's tonight" I inform them
"Oh yeah I remember" Hira says
"Inayah? What happen?" Sumaira asked me
Sh*t I should have know they would know I cried "...umm nothing sumaira why do you ask"
"STOP LYING!" They all yell and I pull my phone away from my ear. I swear they will kill my ear one day.
"Sorry it's just that Bilal asked about Ammi Abbu today so I just missed them a bit" I tell them
"Insha'Allah you all will reunite in Jannah" Iqra says
"Insha'Allah" we all say in unison
"Guys I have to tell you guys something, listen to me carefully before saying anything Okay? I ask them
"Yeah Okay" they all say
"Ummm so Tayabu told me about a rishta I got..." I know they all wanted to say something but I am glad they didn't "....it's this guy my parents had gone to see the day they passed away and they approved of him.." I told them everything about how I told Tayabu that I want to met him and how I am meeting with him tomorrow with Sadiq bhai.
" WE TOLD YOU SO!!!" They say as soon as I tell them to talk. I knew what they were talking about. They always told me I will be the first one to get married and if Allah wills then it will be.
"Okay Okay but can u guys not yell everyone is sleeping here"
And we all talk for another hour and I soon hit the bed.
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Asalamwalakum
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IN MY QADR (Wattys2016)
SpiritualParents. One word that is really important to us. One relation that bought us into the world, helped us become the person we are today what happens when you lose them, become an orphan and a guardian to your 3 younger siblings?
