Off Limits (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Falling Apart

Cause they won't treat me,
Like they should,
Cause they don't need me,
Like you would,

My toes curl, clutch to the edge,
And filled up with regret,
Could you forgive me yet

Top Floor ~ Naughty Boy Ft Ed Sherran

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Chapter 37

*5 days later*

5 days. 5 days I've been without Zayn. Without friends. Without family. 5 whole days and I've never felt any worse then I do now. I lay there motionless in bed with no ambition to get up and do anything. Endless tissue boxes being thrown around and the only sound are from my quiet sobs. I have no appetite for food and if I do eat anything it doesn't stay down long, I'm immediately in the bathroom throwing it all up. I haven't eaten a decent meal in days and haven't been outside since I've locked myself. My phone died three days ago and I just left it without power not wanting to plug it in to hear more heart clenching voice mails from Zayn. The house lines rings every once in a while but if its not my mom then I don't bother picking up. The only time I would get out of bed would be to go to the bathroom and take a shower. Washing Harry's clothes I folded them and there at the bottom of the stairs but I can't resist wearing his trousers. Pairing his trousers with a sweater Zayn gave me I was just to comfortable and depressed to move. As I curled up in bed I heard the crinkling in my sheets curious I felt around only got find the picture of Harry and I I found his Harry's room. Tears stinging my eyes again I couldn't handle looking at the picture throwing it beside me bed. I felt so alone but I wanted to be alone, all I do is hurt but at this point it's the only feeling I'm use to.

Being alone ......

Fuck I wanted to to held again, ...... By Zayn. But I just couldn't look at him, I couldnt stand him

*ding dong*

The door bell went off but I just ignored it not wanting to answer it, I just wanted to be left alone. The person at the door kept ringing it which was driving me crazy so angry I hopped out of bed and stomped down the stairs. As I opened the huge wood door I was blinded temporally by the light but once my eyes adjusted I found the gift on the floor.

It was a medium sized box with pink wrapping paper and a silver glittery bow. I stared at it for a bit but I finally picked it up to my surprise it was pretty light. Taking one last glance outside to see who put it there but I saw no one so I closed the door behind me.

Gracefully I pulled at the bow making it unravel and it fell off the box, I lifted the lid and my heart clenched. It was a picture of Zayn and I but my face was all scratched out and on the back said "he's better without you bitch -A". I knew it was from Ashely and I knew that she was just trying to make me hurt but but this one really got to me. How much I missed him and how much he meant to me, I love him so much and now he's gone. I found myself crying again and placed the photo on the table trying to control my breathing.

The door bell rings again

Rage flew through me thinking that it could be Ashley so I rushed to the door flinging it open

But to my surprise it was Harry but I didn't want him to see me like this. Quickly I turned to close the door but he stopped it with his hand pushing it open to let himself in so I picked up the picture and ran to my room.

"Maggie stop" Harry screamed reaching my bedroom

"What do you want Harry" I tried to stop crying

"I wanted to see how you were doing.....your weren't answering my calls" he whispered

"How do you think I'm doing Harry !" I yelled back at him