Off Limits (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Late Night

If you love me let me go

'Cause these words are knives and often leave scars

The fear of falling apart

And truth be told, I never was yours

The fear, the fear of falling apart

This Is Gospels ~ Panic! At The Disco

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Chapter 47

*Harrys P.O.V*

I guess I hadn't realized the Maggie had fallen asleep on my lap, I'd rather her sleep then cry. It was now 10:30 and Zayn was still missing. I picked up my phone from the side table and dialled his number not expecting a answer but after one ring he picked up

"Hello there old friend" Zayn was smashed

"Zayn where are you? And are you wasted?" I tried to keep my voice down

"Oh tarry....Garry....carry....Larry .....Harry, Harry ummm what was I gonna say again?"

"Zayn where are you I'm coming to pick u up" I spoke more roughly then i wanted

"I'm in a secret place shhhhh" I heard him laugh slightly then the phone hung up

How the hell was I going to find him? He could be anywhere wasted ! As my mind raced i could just sit here all night. I carefully moved Maggie off my lap and lifted me in my arms and started to bring he up the stairs when the door abruptly opened

"Surprise !! My secret place was on the porch" Zayn laughed as he stumbled in

"Shut up your going to wake up Maggie" I hissed

"Hey what are you doing with her? Put her down!" Zayn shouted taking a step toward me

"Zayn stop your wasted !"

"Did you hurt her!! Why was she crying!"

I was surprised how observant he still was even though he was clearly full of alcohol

"Because Zayn she didn't know where you were!!" I shouted

He looked around for a second before backing off and letting me lay he back on the couch

I placed her carefully on the couch before rushing back to Zayn a pinning him uk against the wall

"Tell me where you were right now! Where did you go Zayn? What did you do?" I tried to keep my anger down

"Harrehhh stop"

"Fuck Zayn really just fucking listen for once"

"Let go of my neck and I will tell you" he smiled

I backed for but stood in front of Maggie just in case he did something stupid

"Anger management meetings, remind me to sign you up for those" Zayn waved his finger toward me

"Zayn" I spoke throughout clamped teeth

"Okay okay, I went for a walk at first but then I found myself at Maggie's door. James and her mom were home watching tv together and I thought how long have the been home? They didn't call her or tell her that their home nothing, they don't care Harry. They dint care how she's doing? They don't know what she has been through, she needs her family and they have abandoned her. I did that to her , I ripped her away from her family, I've ruined her relationship with her brother and mother. She has picked me over everyone and I still don't understand why!? All I've done is ruin her life and hurt her and she is still at my sad, crying when I'm gone, like what the fuck have I done to so deserve her. I would tell her to leave and forget about me, walk right out that door and not to look back. She could resemble her relationship with her mother and brother go to school and live her life. She can spend more time with her friends and find someone that won't drag her down. But then I realize I could never let her go, to see her walk out that door forever would kill me and I know that's selfish a rude of me but I would not let her go. I need her Harry just like I know she needs you too. Imagine how you felt when she said she never wanted to see you again, that's what I think of when I want to let her go. I wouldn't live without her, she is my restart button my fresh new start at a life I thoughts would never have. I was so close on ringing the door bell and telling James everything just so she doesn't have to feel that guilt anymore but I chickened out, I ran as fast as I could away from that house before I changed my mind. Then I found the nearest liquor store and drank my thoughts away. I don't want to share her with anyone else, she's mine"