Off Limits (One Direction Fan Fiction)

The Leap

I laid in bed thinking .....

In December on a cold night we had dinner as a family and then my father went to work, but the thing is he never made it. He died in a car accident that I could of stopped, maybe he should of stayed home that night but he didn't. Finally I was okay with the death of my father I had my brother, mother and friends and that's all I needed, but them Zayn came along. He blew me off my feet, showing me the attention that an older guy has never gave me before and I feel for it. Like a stupid teenage girl I fell for the charm and looks and loved the kid, I actually thought he loved me to but then the night my brother got into a near death accident he leaves. He promised me that he would never leave me and he did, In a matter of seconds I can't believe I fell for it......idiot. So now I lie in bed with my body guard down stairs making sure I don't stick my head in the oven as I cry myself to sleep. I would be so much happier dead, I don't want to breath anymore, I don't want my heart to beat because when its able to beat its able to hurt and mine had gone through to much hurting ...

I slowly creeped out of bed making sure Liam didnt hear me and walked down the stairs, the poor guy was passed out on the couch so I left him a note

Liam

The words that you said to me before we're true and I understand that but I think you said that to the wrong person. I am not supposed to be living this life, I am not supposed to be going through this much pain in just 17 years. I lost my father, I'm losing my brother and I've lost the love of my life so I don't want to hurt anymore Liam, I don't want to feel pain. The only way that I will be able to be free is if I take my last breath on earth forever. So I guess you can call this my 'note', that's what people do when they end there life I guess or so I've heard. Don't blame yourself this is my decision, go on with your life and forget about my family. Tell regina that she will find that special boy, tell Alice that her and tristan will make cute little babies one day i will watch them with my life and tell Cady to never let anyone tell her to change. Tell Niall that he will always be my little leprechaun, tell Louis that he was the only one that could put a smile on my face, tell Harry that he was my rock and helped me so much but most importantly tell Zayn that I love him, forever and always

Love, Maggie

I left the note just beside his hand, picked up my keys and went out the front door getting into my range rover. I knew exactly where I was going, I wanted to die in a beautiful place, I was going to Serpentine Park it was about a 10 minute drive, not to long for me to change my mind. I didn't turn on the radio but I took one last look at the country I was born in, the posh and class, the architecture, the history it was all so beautiful so peaceful. I got to the park and drove right in parking my car right near the river. I went to the bridge which would surly be high enough for the fearful fall.

*play 9 Crimes by Damien Rice*

I stepped out of my car letting the light chilling breeze cover my body, it was a peaceful night, not to mention it was about 12 and not a lot of people we out. I was able to see the stars and how they all twinkled I wanted to be apart of that. I wanted to be in peace away from the madness and sorrow away from family, friends and boys just to be with me and my minds to be able to hear myself think. I want to shed a tear and not be frightened that someone is watching, i wanna yell at the top of my lungs but for the world to stay the same. If I left this world nothing would really change, people would eventually get on with there lives, the boys would end up all getting married, my mom would move on hopeful with James still by her side. James, James, the brother that I could lose forever, no not this time it was my turn to take over I was the one that's going to cause the sorrow not go through it. Maybe my father will be waiting for me up there somewhere, his arms wide open pulling me into a hug and never letting go again. We would watch all the people that we love go on with there lives together without us. I could almost feel my father wrap his arms around me. I took out everything that was in my pocket, my keys, my phone, the pack of gum and laid all nicely out on the ledge of the bridge. My hand weren't shacking but perfectly still with one foot I claimed up onto the ledge letting the wind wrap around me. I was able to take in the breeze and the silence, a random bird tweeting here and there. Just before I could jump I went over my life in my head. The one time I fought with my father and locked myself in the bathroom so he stood in the room next to me knocking on the wall trying to get me to stop crying and to come out he finally made me smile after 30 minutes which where I came out regretting the lost time we had together. The doll incident with James, how it was an accident and he spent every last dime on my new doll, I regret shutting the door in his face. My first heart break, 9th year where I gave everything to a boy that I thought was the one but then just ended up changing his mind, my mom comforted me for days as I cried in my room, filling my pillow with tears and make up. The image of my father lying on the table with no sign of life in him, all the blood and tears, then later on experiencing the first loyal act if my knight in shinning armour, Zayn. I really thought he loved me back after all that time but I guess I was to be proven wrong on this night. The night my life changed forever, James in the car accident, him being out in the same room and my father at the hospital, then Zayn ripping out my heart and crumbling it in front of me, he did all that, the same room where he saved me form myself. I protected him from my brother when in the end I should of listened to James, but its to late to listen, the only sound worth listening to now is the machine that's keeping him alive. All the girl nights i had with Regina, alice and Cady, they were probably the nest memories of my life and i would hold the, dear to my heart forever, they would eventually forget about me and move on with there lives....all they needed was time. All these memories passed through my head, the good ones and the bad, a tear flowed down my face and I knew I was ready, I was ready to let go. I could hear my iPhone beside me and when I looked down it was Liam, he had seen the note and probably going crazy but I don't need to worry anymore. Soon there will be no more tears, the numb feeling will drain out and I will run into the light into my fathers arms. I lifted a leg holding my breath, giving myself the courage to let go. I leaned forward feeling my self fall