Jiley: why me?

What does it mean?

Riley's PoV

I'm lying in my bed and it feels weird. Dinner was well quite a little awkward. Well a lot awkward. I keep thinking about he word family. I always thought it meant when someone wanted you for you, loved you and made you feel comfortable. Family was always a comforting word to me growing up. It meant the world to me to have one till now. At dinner Deborah asked me to call her and David, mum and dad. Up to this moment I've always wanted to call someone my mum and dad but David just puts me off the whole thing. He doesn't seem loving or caring. James always seems to tense up around him and it kind of makes me weary about him.
"Riley darling"
"Hi debro.. I mean mum"
"You'll get used to it I promise" she says in such a motherly tone. I love Deborah and nothing will change that not even David.
"I know.." It's a little awkward now
"Are you okay, I mean you've been acting a little different lately"
"yeah, I'm just confused I mean I've had no family till now and I don't know if I like"
"What do you mean do you want to go back or..?" As she says that I burst into tears. They want me to be there perfect daughter when in reality I can't even be a prefect version of myself. I've got too much past heart brake to be perfect.  Maybe I'm not cut out to be apart of a family.
"Can I just be alone please?"
"Yeah of course darling" she leaves and closes the door. All I need is him right now and I know I can't have him.

I hear the door creek open and there he is standing there. I have mascara all down my face and my hair is in a messy bun. He closes he door behind him and climbs into bed with me. He wraps a protective arm around me.
"What do they want me to be?" I ask him.
"There daughter, the girl they read about. Someone who is perfect and good at school and it good at everything really"
"I l can't be perfect thought, I'm emotionally destroyed. I've been kicked of homes faster that you can say perfect"
"That's what they expect if me too and were the Torjiman we have to be perfect. Apparently everyone wants to be us and we set an example to the town"
"Me set and example to the town, you don't even know why I got kicked out half of my homes for" I can't believe I just said that
"Why have you?"
"Do you really want to know?"
"Yeah" he says and that where it begins. I've got to tell him my story now.

A/N

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