Pick Me.❥// Jacob Sartorius

hospital pt.3

I see Jacob laying awake on his hospital bed.

i walk in and wave.

Jacobs face imeddiatly lights up.

" hey jacob." i say.

He waves. He motions with his hands that he can't talk.

" oh." i nod my head.

" i was really worried about you last night." i say with tears in my eyes.

He nods his head.

" i dont know what i'd do without you." i whisper.

He gives me a sad smile.

I sit in the chair next to his hospital bed.

I talk to him about random things becuase i know he can't respond. But in a way it still feels like we're having a conversation with each other.

After about 20 minutes Jacob pushes a button on his remote that means he needs more medicine.

Doctors come in and do as they're told and Jacob falls asleep soon after.

I leave his room and go to the lobby.

The doctors that were in Jacobs room were talking to Jacobs mom now.

" he can most likely leave the hospital tomorrow night." Says the doctor.

" yay!" Jacobs mom says.

" he'll get his oxygen tank tomorrow and should wear it everyday until his symptoms seem to go away. "

" okay. "

An oxygen tank. For Jacob. This is horrible.

" mom what time do we have to leave?" I ask.

" 4 o'clock." She states.

It's 3:27.

I take a blank piece of paper from the front desk.

I write a note to Jacob that reads,

hi jacob, I have to leave back to my house.
But I need you to promise me one thing. That you'll be ok. Please. 
love,
Brooklynn

I put the note on the side table next to Jacobs bed.

" you ready to go home?" My mom asks.

" I guess." I respond.

I take one last one stop to Jacobs room.

I look at him and whisper, " bye jacob."

Even though he's sleeping, I feel like he's listening.

I leave the hospital and ride another silent ride home.

I get home and greet my cat.
Thank god my dad has been taking care of her.

Marshmallow was waiting almost in the same place I left her.

I wish Jacob was here to meet marshmallow.
I wish he was just with me.
I miss him.

And I have to go to school tomorrow. Great.
I won't be able to concentrate at all.

I lay on my bed and cry like I have for the past two nights.

I stop crying and get in the shower because I stink.
Once I get in the shower I start crying again. I end up in the shower for like an hour.

I fall asleep right when I get out of the shower. The only thing on my mind is Jacob. And I'm begging, begging he's okay.

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🍉 short oonneee:(

💤 and sad one:((

🐶 ill try to update tmrw

🍕 stay beautiful xoxo