Never Shout Never!

Lovebug

"Nicholas, please get up and get out. It's been two days already and Nolan is getting really clingy." I pulled the sheets over my head and ignored her pleas and begging. Can't she see that I'm bed bound right now?

"I'll get up. Just get out first."

"No way! You said that yesterday and you lied. Nick, if you don't get up, I'm telling your mom."

"So? I don't care." I felt the bed shift and her sighing loudly.

"Nick, can you please just get up and at least open your gifts? You haven't even touched them." I groaned, but reluctantly sat up. They stayed in a pile in the corner of my room for the past two days now.

"Fine. Bring them here." I heard her squeal in excitement as she handed me the first one.

"This one is from Chester and his boyfriend James." I opened it up to find a vibrator. My eyes widened and I tossed it urgently to Chaz who seemed to be amused.

"Hmm.. maybe this will put you out of your dark hole."

"I am gonna kill Chester when I see him. What the heck am I gonna do with that?" Chaz opened her mouth to say something, but I held my hand up.

"Don't even answer that." I continued to open the rest of my presents from everyone which consisted of gift cards, jewelry, perfume, and phone cases.

"Hey Nick, I have two questions."

"Shoot."

"First, Christofer keeps calling you and you're ignoring his calls, but yet you're the upset one. What's up with that?" I know what you guys are probably thinking. It's not like I don't want to, I just can't. Like I'll start yelling at him, and then I'll get anxiety because of it, and start having a panic attack on the phone, and then start crying like a dead walrus. It's a recipe for disaster.

"I already told you why."

"No we are gonna call him right now!"

"Fine but I'm not talking."

"No!"

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"N-"

"Say no again and I'll text Christofer and say that you want to break up."

"No please!"

"Well do it." I swear, sometimes I hate Chaz.. like a lot.

"I hate you. Now what was that second question?" Her face went serious and she nervously scooted closer to me.

"So.. me and Nolan almost had sex last night."

"WHAT?!" She shushed me urgently and punched me in the arm.

"Be quiet! I just wanted to know.. what should I do? Like I wanna do it, but at the same time I don't, I'm too scared."

"Chaz, I think it's pretty normal to feel that way. Honestly though, it depends on if you're ready or not. If you're having doubts, don't do it. Only if you really love him." I gave her an encouraging pat on her shoulder and she smiled. She turned her phone and and started touching away on the iphone, and put it back down on the bed. Weirdo.

"Alright. What about you? Don't you love Christofer?" Shit. Something told me she was gonna do that.

"Wellll.... I am nineteen, and I am an adult, meaning that I could do whatever I want. So far, I don't think I ever loved anyone as much as I love him. Not even Vinny. I am ready.. I think. I don't know, when I'm with him he makes me feel special, you know? Like he never loved any girl before besides me."