Intertwined

Chapter Ten

CHARLES' POV

When I came home on Friday night, I was met by Nana with disappointment all over her face.

"How could you do that?! She was your bestfriend!" Nana scolded me. I actually felt guilty for blaming Vie. Everyone who witnessed it from the very beginning all said the same thing: Amanda started it. I made the biggest mistake by choosing to side with Amanda. After Vie walked out of the room, Amanda told me that she needed time alone. I then wandered the campus all alone. I was worried about Vie. I never saw Vie cry before. But she did tell me that when she cried, she could hardly breathe and I didn't want that to happen to her. But I fucked it all up and not only did I risk her health, I also lost her trust. I should've asked first. My mind was so occupied of Amanda that I forgot about Vie and I was about to regret it for the rest of my life.

I waited two hours for Amanda. I kept on texting her but she was not replying. When I found her, she was talking with Daniel and Julia. They seemed to be warning Amanda but she acted like she didn't care. There were a lot of people watching and I couldn't help but defend Amanda.

"Hey that's enough," I said. I touched Amanda's arm but she shoved my hand. I heard people saying, "Is that Amanda's boyfriend?" as they were laughing. I was used to people judging my looks. I was not exactly the most handsome person and I was dubbed to be the weird nerd. I thought I'd feel and look cooler if I would go with Amanda but I still didn't. However, when I was with Vie I could accept myself and I actually felt happy. I was comfortable being myself with Vie because she encouraged me to never be anybody else but me. But Amanda was my first love and I was so lucky that she gave me another chance to go out with her again. I didn't want to waste that chance. I snapped back to reality and I saw that all eyes that were on us four. Amanda looked pissed at me. What did I do wrong? Amanda seemed embarrassed and she decided to walk away.

"Amanda!" I called her.

Julia then stood in front of me and I was shocked when she hit me in the chest. Daniel stopped her from hitting me and so she spoke, "You insolent fucking imbecile!" She took a deep breath and pointed back her fingers at me. "I know I am not in the place and I am not the one who should be fucking shredding you to pieces but I hope Vivienne lets me!"

"Look, I am sorry for what I did," I said as sincerely as I truly was. Apparently, Julia was not convinced.

"Fuck you! She glowered at me.

"Babe, calm down," Daniel said as he pulled back Julia.

"Vivienne would not think twice to hurt me back after what I did," I stated.

"No. Even if she could, she wouldn't. Your loss." They both left. I was so mad at how right Julia was that I could feel the bitter bile rising up my throat. Losing Vie was a loss. But I was more bothered with these words: Even if she could, she wouldn't. What, hurt me? After what I did, Vie would definitely get her revenge. And then an image of Amanda popped into my head. I went out to find her again. This time, it was easy. I found her laughing with her group of friends she never introduced me before. In fact, she never introduced me to anyone before. We'd always hang out in private and she seemed to have never been proud of me. And it was evident at this moment. They all looked at me, even Amanda, with disgust. I started talking, "Hey Amanda."

Amanda then glared at me and I cowered, "Leave me alone you fucking nerd! Stop following me!" They were all inspecting me from head to toe and then they were all laughing at me. I went away completely humiliated. Why did I put up with Amanda? Sometimes, I'd thought she was using me and then I'd think that she wasn't. Maybe I kept on believing on the saying that First love never dies. That's what kept me loving Amanda. Or was it really love? I was probably lying to myself all along. I never felt the warmth, the one when I was with Vie, when I went out with Amanda. Amanda never made me smile and laugh the way Vie did. I needed to be true to myself. I would want to finally admit it. I had a big crush on Vie. I knew it when we met that I'd be crazy about this girl. I was awestruck when I first saw her. We really had a connection. I never had a real laugh, the one that makes your tummy hurt, for ages until Vie showed up in our room. However, Amanda kept on popping in the picture. I still had feelings for Amanda but also growing feelings for Vie. When Amanda allowed me to go with her, I decided to choose her instead of Vie. After all, Vie and I were only bestfriends and she'd probably never love me more than that. It was all confusing. My heart was torn between two ladies. And I believed I just lost them both.