Roommates (Gravity Falls College AU)

Chapter 5:

WARNING: SELF HARM. CONTINUE WITH CAUTION. IF YOU ARE WEAK HEARTED, I WOULD RECOMMEND SKIPPING CERTAIN PARTS OF THIS CHAPTER. THANK YOU. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I heard shuffling in the room as always and looked over to see Bill laying on his bed, facing the wall. "Hey, Bill." No respond. "Bill?" More silence. I sighed and laid down, closing my eyes and eventually drifting off into a long doze of sleep.

Bill's POV. The POV I have all been waiting for. Oh. I mean. You.

"Will, I'm sorry.." I looked at my brother, then glanced away. "I'm a terrible brother. I know. I don't deserve you. Don't deserve a family. No wonder I lose everything. I'm not meant to be happy." I finally managed to steady my voice, hearing a door shut, but dismissing it. Will slowly stood up, shaking. "I...h...have to g...go.." He whispered, turning away and walking to him and Tad's dorm. I sighed and looked down. I really am nothing but a stupid pitiful human. I hate it. I hate myself. I shook the thoughts out of my head and walked back to the dorm Pinetree and I shared. I looked over at the brunet, he was reading a book. The Giving Tree. I walked straight to my bed and laid down, facing the wall. I heard Pinetree speak. "Hey, Bill." I stayed silent, wanting him to think.. No. To believe I was asleep. I was too upset to speak. Too lost. I didn't want to worry Pinetree. "Bill?" He spoke again. I remained silent. After a while of silence, I glanced over to see Pinetree already sleeping. I couldn't help but smile a bit at the sleeping form. His hair was messed up from the pillow and he was drooling a bit. I sighed and sat up, hugging my knees. I looked over at my top hat -I'd placed it on the table earlier- and slowly picked it up. There it was. I never told anyone of it. No one knew. There was the razor I'd used on my wrist multiple times. I reached over and picked up the stainless steel, closing my eyes as it neared my wrist. I lowered it further until I felt slight pain. That's when I slid it across. I opened my eyes, seeing the blood rolling down as did my tears. I sighed and cut my wrist again, ignoring the pain. I looked over at Pinetree and paused. Pinetree... I looked down at the razor and felt my heart stop. I couldn't leave Pinetree. I would never be able to tell him what I felt. How I feel. I cut my wrist one last time. Perhaps too deep. I placed the razor down under my pillow, standing up as blood streamed down my wrists, dropping onto the floor. I made my way to the bathroom and grabbed a towel, getting it wet and gently dabbing the wounds. "Bill?..." I heard a tired voice whimper out. No..no please no. "Pinetree?.." I whispered. "The one and only." I heard the voice soften. He didn't comment about the blood drops on the dorm floor. Perhaps he was too tired. I entered the room, still dabbing my wrist gently before noticing Pinetree. He was laying on the floor, half asleep. I rose an eyebrow and put the towel away, walking over. "Pinetree?" I shook his shoulder gently. He was wrapped up in the blanket and I found that a bit funny. He groaned, rubbing his eyes tiredly. I chuckled and picked up the brunet, setting him back on his bed so he could sleep. I was about to walk away until I was pulled down next to him. I gasped in surprise and looked at the still sleeping Pinetree. I laughed a bit. I didn't know Pinetree was a cuddler! How cute! I nuzzled into his chest and closed my eyes, beginning to drift off into a deep sleep. I loved Pinetree. Even if I never told him. I still would and still do. I slept peacefully that night and the stinging sensation on my wrist seemed as though it were never truly there. I found someone I love. Someone... Someone who can rid my pain.

(( Ahhhhh so sorry if the chapter is too short! I was really tired and have testing tomorrow and so I wrote this in a bit of a hurry! But I hope you still like it!!