You Still There? (Larry Stylinson) *editing*

Chapter Two [Harry]

Chapter Two [Harry]

Monday, 6th February..

I turned the TV on, laying down on my bed. I kept staring at my laptop though, hoping to get an answer. But of course I wouldn't. Why would he reply? Hell, maybe he didn't even read it? I was just waiting for something. That something never came and I just fell asleep around midnight, fully clothed, TV and laptop never turned off.

I woke up before noon because Liam woke me up. He decided to check on me every day since Louis left.

“Did Louis write back?”, I mumbled sleepily, not realizing that I didn't want to tell anyone about it. Luckily, Liam thought I was still dreaming so he didn't think more about it or ask me. “Louis isn't here, Harry..”, Liam said quietly and turned off the TV and took my laptop. I sighed and buried my face in a pillow. “No, Harry. No sleeping or staying in bed today. You'll come with me and we'll all meet at Niall's.”, Liam insisted and pulled me up. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. “No.”, I whined and rubbed my eyes. “C'mon get a shower, change your clothes and I'll make some breakfast.” I yawned and nodded slightly. “Okay..”, I mumbled and slowly got up after Liam left the room. I made it to the bathroom, where I showered, brushed my teeth and eventually went back to my bedroom, changing into fresh clothes.

I went downstairs where I found Liam in the kitchen, breakfast already prepared. I yawned again and sat down. “Thanks, Li.” I gave him a small smile and started eating. I was just about to ask if I should wake Louis up too when I realized he wasn't there anymore. “Not hungry..”, I mumbled and pushed the plate away slightly. “No, Harry. Eat.”, Liam insisted. “Niall can have it!”, I protested. “No. C'mon eat. Not eating doesn't bring Louis back.”, he said and I sighed. He was right.

“Ready to go?”, Liam asked me after we finished breakfast and I nodded. “Yeah, I'll just get my phone.”, I said and quickly went upstairs, taking my phone with me after I quickly checked my emails. Nothing. I sighed and went back downstairs again to a waiting Liam.

We went out to his car and drove to Niall's. The car ride was quiet and I was just staring out of the window, my mind drifting off to Louis as always since he left.

We took some Nando's with us for Niall because we were sure Niall would want us to. I was rather quiet all the time and they tried to cheer me up. We watched a few movies and I looked at my phone every few minutes, not really paying attention.

“He's not going to call or text, Harry.”, Liam said quietly. I sighed. “I know.”, I murmured.

I tried to act as normal as possible but I was rather absent-minded. But at some point the others couldn't act as if there was nothing anymore.

“What if he got kidnapped?”. Niall asked quietly. Zayn ran a hand through his hair and sighed. “I don't think so..” “I hope he didn't.”, Liam replied and sighed quietly.

“He didn't..”, I murmured. “He took personal stuff with him and things no one besides us knew about.. He left on his own.” I said quietly and stared down at my lap. Why couldn't Louis just come back and make some joke about it and just be back?

“What's gonna happen with us now?”, Zayn asked quietly. “Management wants us to come to some meeting tonight...”, Liam informed us. The others nodded slightly. “Can I get home before we go there?”, I asked, looking up. Liam nodded. “Okay. Now? Let's all meet at Harry's at 7.45?”, he suggested. We all agreed and Liam drove me back to Louis' and my flat. (I refused to call it only mine even though it was now since Louis left.)

I thanked and hugged him before I quickly went upstairs to get my laptop. I immediately checked my emails but got disappointed again. I didn't know what to do with myself so I looked for Louis on the internet. Looking at pictures only hurt me more but reading rumors about why Louis might have left didn't make it any better. How could they even think stuff like that? Louis would never leave because he was selfish or anything along those lines. I decided to write Louis again, knowing I wouldn't have much time now anymore anyway. And I couldn't be sure to have time after the meeting.

So I wrote Louis again before the others came and quickly got ready so I didn't look too bad. I just really hoped management wasn't the reason why Louis left. But why didn't he just talk to us about it? Before I could think more about it, the boys arrived and we drove to the meeting after Niall stole some food out of my fridge. Liam gave Niall a stern look but he only shrugged and went outside. We all followed, making our way to the meeting with management.

I was nervous about the meeting, didn't know what to expect. What would they say? Would they want them to just continue without Louis? Would they destroy Louis' contract? I really had no clue at all and I tried to keep my thoughts off it because I didn't want to get worked up and worry about things that I shouldn't worry about.

Everything had changed since Louis was gone, even though it only were a few days. I just missed him so much and I really regretted not telling him my actual feelings now. He was gone now anyway, so it wouldn't change anything if I told him, right? Just that he would have left because of me.. But what if I actually was the reason why he left? No.. why would he leave because of me? I did nothing wrong, did I? I was just so unsure of everything since he was gone. He was the person who kind of kept me save from all the hate and everything that hurt me. He was the one who told people to fuck off if they insulted me. Maybe I just didn't protect him as good as he protected me? I didn't know it. And I tried really hard to keep my thoughts off that, but I wanted to know, needed to know. I needed him back. Life without him.. just didn't seem easy.

He also was the one who could make me laugh with his stupid jokes, who would light up the room simply by walking in with a smile on his face. He was like the sun. The earth needs the sun to survive. I was the earth who revolved around Louis, the sun. And I needed him to survive.

But before I could find him, I needed to find out why he left. Maybe I could find something if I looked through our stuff? So that's what I had planned to do after the meeting or – if it would be too late – the next day.

The meeting went quite... well, I wasn't so sure what to think.

First, they kind of panicked and yelled at us – or more at Louis, but he wasn't there obviously –, then they got all friendly and asked us what we wanted to do and in the end they just blamed Louis for everything bad that happened in their whole lives. So I was pissed. They didn't know why Louis left, so why blame him?

And that was the reason why I barely got any sleep that night – after I wrote Louis another email -, having already gotten home pretty late and being annoyed.

At some point I fell asleep though and I slept dreamless, unusual for me since Louis was gone. I guess, I was just too tired and my mind just needed a little pause from thinking.

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