You Still There? (Larry Stylinson) *editing*

Chapter Eight [Harry]

Chapter Eight [Harry]

Thursday, 9th February...

Zayn woke me up early, because management wanted us to come to a meeting at like 9 in the morning, which made me groan in frustration. I didn't want to get up but I had to eventually. So after a quick shower and breakfast, we got picked up and drove to management.

The meeting was rather unorganised. They told us we would continue and that Louis had some time to come back but if that wasn't soon, they would destroy his contract. This made me rather scared because I couldn't imagine continuing as a band when Louis was back but couldn't be with us. I really hoped he would be back soon.

After the meeting, the boys dragged me with them to do some shopping for about an hour. It didn't really help them anything that I was there. But when fans saw us, I could talk to them and the others could continue shopping at least. I wasn't really in the mood to meet people now, but I had to be friendly, so I just forced a smile and told them I was okay although a little sad because of Louis leaving. As soon as Louis was mentioned, I got hit with questions like: “Where is he?”, “Why did he leave?”, “What happened?”, “Did you fight?” and others. I told them the truth, which was simple. I didn't know and nobody else knew.

Two of them even asked me if we were a couple before Louis left. I just shook my head and told them we were just best friends, nothing more. And we haven't been more. Officially. No one knew about my crush on him, which was rather huge.

One girl – she was rather shy – was even scared that Louis was dead. But I quickly assured her that that couldn't be true because then there'd be a dead body somewhere and people would know. At least that's what I told myself so I wouldn't panic in front of them. I was glad when I got distracted with another question.

I was kind of happy when we had to leave again. Not that I wouldn't like our fans, no I loved them. I was just tired and sad and it was hard not to let that show.

Niall went with me to Louis' and my flat since he was the one who'd “look after” me that day. Of course we had to get some Nando's before, but that didn't bother me that much. I just stayed in the car and waited for him.

While I was waiting, I absentmindedly played with my phone in my hands. The sudden buzz when I got a text almost made me jump. I furrowed my eyebrows lightly and saw it was a text from Jay, Louis' mum. She asked if I wanted to visit them and if I had heard something from Louis.

Jay was Louis' mum and no one expected us to be that close, I guess, but since Louis and I were best friends and never really wanted to separate, we always visited our families together. That's why me and his mum were pretty close and my mum was also pretty close with Louis. Maybe another reason was that Anne and Jay had become close friends after they met a few times because of Louis and me. I decided to take the chance and visit Louis' mum and sisters. If I didn't go, I would just be stuck at home with Niall, who always got sad when someone else got sad. So I didn't really have something to look forward to. I also expected sad faces when I visited Louis' family, but at least they'd let me talk about Louis, I thought.

I quickly called her and asked when I should come. I knew it was about a 3-hours-drive but I didn't really care much about that. She told me I could come whenever I want and that she and the girls were looking forward to see me again. We hadn't seen each other in a while. The last time I saw them was when I drove to them and asked if they knew where Louis was. And that wasn't a very long visit.

So when Niall came back, I told him I'd go to visit Louis' mum. He offered to come with me but I told him to make himself a nice day and do something with the boys or someone else.

On my way to Doncaster, I didn't turn the radio on or listened to any music. It just reminded me too much of the long drives to our families with Louis. When we'd sing on top of their lungs while driving and just have so much fun together. I didn't want those memories replaced with memories of him alone driving somewhere and having fun without Louis. Although I highly doubted I could have fun without Louis.

When I arrived at Louis' mum's, I was welcomed by her and Louis' sisters. They all seemed quite happy to see me but there was always a sadness present while my whole stay.

I played a little with the girls – they kind of forced me, but I didn't mind – and drank some tea while I talked with Jay. She told me a few things and we puzzled over why Louis could have left. She offered me to stay the night but I said no and thanked her for the offer. I could not stay here without Louis. And what if he came back to our flat that night? I know, that was highly unlikely but I couldn't risk it. So I made my way back home in silence soon again.

When I came home around 10, I immediately made my way to my laptop and wrote Louis my daily email before I went to bed without eating dinner. I didn't feel the need to.

Sorry, it took a while. What do you think? xx