Poems for Everything (Part#1)

The Beast Inside

I can usually control her,

usually keep her in her cage.

Under tight lock and key,

but every now and again,

she gets out,

she escapes.

She stays quiet as long

as I can keep her satisfied

with my own blood.

But sometimes,

she demands the heads

of my friends on a platter.

I hate to do it,

cuz it pushes them away,

but she causes me to snap,

to bite their heads off

with my anger.

I can feel when she's loose,

cuz my anger flares easier than ever.

I try to fight her,

but she's to strong,

and I'm to weak.

When she's lose,

I feel so alone.

She gets behind me,

and there's nothing I can do

but obey her demands.

If I don't,

she hurts me,

and I'm so weak that

I can't stand her kind of pain.

The pain of the blade,

it's blissful numbness.

The pain from her,

the beast inside,

it's painful and everything

I want to avoid

with the blade.

When she's locked up,

she tears at my insides,

drinking my blood and

demanding more every time.

I let her tear me up,

it's less painful

than when she's lose.

If she's locked up,

then she can't hurt my friends.

If she's locked up,

I can be strong.

But once she's lose,

it's as if I'm dead....

I can't do anything to her,

not until she is satisfied

or tamed.

I've tried to tame her,

really I have,

but it's as if,

only a few can

and it's not me.

I can feel her now,

scratching my insides,

drinking my blood

and craving more.

She wants out,

and she won't stop

unti she's out.

I quiver in pain,

wanting her dead,

but knowing that

if I kill her,

I'll lose a part of myself.

She's the strong part of me,

and I use her strength when I need it,

but it weakens the bonds of her cage,

and she gets out almost always.

Right now,

her cage is almost worn down,

and she's screaming at me,

demanding I release her or

she'll hurt me.

I fight with all my might,

trying to keep her back.

I try to satisfy

her with my own blood,

but it makes no difference...

She's to strong...

She's the beast inside....