Fire and Ice (Book 2)

Chapter 5 - Heartfelt Confessions and Chinese Food

ROSE'S POV-

It's been almost a month since I broke up with Scorpius. The first few days were the worst. I refused to come out of the attic. Al eventually showed up for the first time in weeks and talked to me. I wouldn't tell anyone why we ended things. I didn't want them to know about everything with Lucius. At least not yet. I allowed myself only a few days to be upset about everything. After all, I broke up with him. But even though I claim I'm fine, I'm not. I love Scorp more then anything in the world. He's my best friend and it kills me to know we're not together anymore. I constantly feel numb. I go through each day not feeling anything. But I laugh, and smile, and act like I'm perfectly fine. I just miss him so bloody much! I miss him holding me, talking to me, kissing me. But most of all, I miss the times where he told me he loved me. And I know it's not fair for me to act upset. As I previously stated, I ended things. But I regret it every day. And there's been several times where I've almost gone to his house and apologized. But I know I was right so I don't.

I finally took my N.E.W.T.S and am currently waiting for the results. Alice and I finally got a flat. It's perfect. We each have a room and it has the cutest tiny kitchen. Lily is still in the hospital. I haven't gone to see her since the day Scorp and I broke up. Al says he hasn't heard from Scorpius since everything happened. Today I was going to Diagon ally to pick up some things for the flat. I was walking down the street when I collided with someone. I grabbed my head in pain and stood up. "I'm so sorry I wasn't watching where I was going!" I said apologetically. I looked at the person I had bumped into and gasped. It was Scorpius. Except, it didn't look like Scorpius. His hair was longer and it looked as if he hadn't shaved in weeks. His eyes were bloodshot and underlined in thick, purple bags. He was skinnier than usual. Our eyes met and awkward silence fell.

"Hi." I said meekly. "Hi." He said back. "Ummm, you look good." I lied. He let out a sharp laugh. "Sure." He said sarcastically. "Would you like to go to lunch? We could catch up." I said. The words were out of my mouth before I could think properly. "Yeah, sure." He said. We walked into a small pub and I ordered for us. I sat down across from him. "So, how have you been?" I asked brightly. "How do you expect?" He said harshly. Anger pulsed through my veins. "Scorpius, are you seriously blaming everything on me?" I asked. "Yes actually, I am." He snapped. "I gave you an ultimatum. But you didn't choose our relationship." I said with a sigh. "You're right. I picked the safety of others." He snapped. "So you're saying you care about others more than you care about me?" I asked realizing how selfish I sounded. "No. I never said that. I bloody love you Rose! I've told you that countless times! But I really don't want to risk the lives of others." He said. I could feel the tears threatening to leak out of the corners of my eyes.

"Don't think of it that way!" I begged. "How am I supposed to think about it?" He asked angrily. "Think of it like this, you might be endangering Al and Alice, but with their help we would be saving more people. And if you really love me then you'd see it like that." I finished. "You know I love you, but I'm already putting your life on the line. Why should I do the same with my best friends?" He asked. A tear fell down my cheek. "I think I should go." I said as I stood up. He nodded. "I think so too."

I flooed to my flat and ran straight to my room. I locked the door and collapsed my bed. My breaths came out sharp and labored. I couldn't believe him! Was I being unreasonable? I understand where he's coming from. Obviously I don't want to put anyone else in danger, but if we can't do this alone. And the worst part about this entire situation is that I can't talk to anyone about it. It's not like I need Scorpius's permission to tell everyone about Lucius. I can do whatever the hell I want! But it wouldn't feel right if I told people about things without him next to me.

I will stop Lucius with or without Scorpius's help. Despite my best efforts I've had no luck with the note from the bag. I've done as much research as possible but still, no luck. I eventually fell asleep. It had been raining and the sounds of thunder lulled me to sleep.

The next few days passed slowly. I had fallen into a simple routine that didn't require me leaving the flat. I really didn't want to interact with anyone. I was extremely upset about my run in with Scorpius. It just reminded me of how much I love him. Now that I think about it, seeing him again is inevitable. He's going to be an auror and I'm going to be working in The Department of Magical Law Enforcement. We were going to see each other again. Speaking of work, I plan on applying for a job as soon as Lucius is dead. I really don't know how long that's going to be, but I don't think I'd be able to focus on anything knowing a psychotic, power-thirsty wizard is on the loose. I was just starting to fix myself dinner when I hear a knock on the door. I grabbed my wand and opened it slowly. As soon as the door was open Lily pushed past me and threw herself on to the couch. "What are you doing here?" I asked. "I need somewhere to stay." She said quickly. "And what makes you think your welcome here?" I asked. "Well I did give you some pretty useful information." She pointed out. "Yeah, I don't really know how useful it was." I said as I rolled my eyes. "What do you mean?" She asked. "Well the whole situation with Lucius caused Scorpius and I to break up." I said coldly. "YOU BROKE UP?" She yelled. "Yes. And I'd appreciate it if you didn't yell at me." I snapped. "But why? You two are perfect for each other." She exclaimed. "Yeah well I thought so too." I replied. I collapsed on the couch next to her.

"So really, what are you doing here." I asked. "I told you. I need a place to stay." She replied. "Well I'm sure you parents would be happy to have you." I said. "No, I don't think they would. Everyone hates me." She pouted. "Can you blame them?" I asked as I raised my eyebrows. "No, I can't." She said as she cast her gaze towards the ground. She looked so pitiful. And I don't know why, but I felt bad. After all she had done, I actually felt bad. "Fine. I guess you can stay here for a little while." I said with a sigh. "Really?" She shrieked. "Yeah. Just go and put your stuff in Alice's room. When she gets back you'll either have to leave or sleep on the couch." I said. She nodded happily. "I was going to make dinner but I don't think I have enough food for both of us. I could just order takeout from the muggle place down the street." I suggested. "Ok! Would you mind if I use your shower?" She asked. "No go ahead." I said

Thirty minutes later we were sitting cross legged on the floor in front of the TV eating Chinese. Lily was chattering away and it was starting to bother me. "Could you shut up?" I cried. "Sorry." She said. "It's fine. I guess I'm still upset about Scorpius. I really miss him and you being happy is getting in the way of my grieving." I said. "I understand. So why did you guys break up?" She asked. I realized something. She already knew about everything with Lucius so I could tell her about our fight. I quickly explained everything and waited for her response. "You're totally right. Does he really think that just the two of you will be able to take Lucius? It's impossible." She exclaimed. "Exactly my point." I said. It felt nice to have someone to talk to. Sure, Al and Alice are great. But I can't actually tell them my problems.

"So do you think he'll come back and apologize?" She asked. "I don't know. I saw him a few days ago and he still seemed pretty set on his answer." I replied. "Well he'll realize sooner or later he'll die without you." She said. I blushed. "The whole situation is just awful. He's my best friend and I love him. I love him so bloody much." Tears started to leak from the corners of my eyes. Lily leaned over and wrapped her arms around me. "It's going to be ok." She said soothingly.

After awhile I was all cried out. I sat up and we talked for a while longer. "I think I'm going to head to bed. Thanks for letting me stay with you." Lily said as she stood up. "No problem. I guess I'll see you in the morning." I replied. She walked into Alice's room and closed the door. I was left thinking that maybe I would be ok.

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