A Thing, Beyond Forever

32.

I hope I'll be doing enough justice to Nouman in this part :)

Nouman's P.O.V

"If only you were here, cupcake" I sighed on the call with Zukroof.

She hummed on the other side. I missed her during our late night conversations.

"And, what else?" I asked. It wasn't like, I didn't want to talk to her. But, I didn't have anything to speak much. Literally, nothing to speak.

"It's a long night," the voice seemed frosty and I could sense a quiver in her voice.

Maybe, she's just alone. I reconciled myself.

"How are you lately?" she asked, "It's been a long time since I've heard your voice". Followed by a sigh.

"I am good. You?" I tried initiating a conversation. It was followed by an awkward silence. I could hear the rain over the phone as I looked out my window and saw the scorching sunlight.

"It's raining," she said breaking the silence.

"I know,"

"I heard the sound of the rain" I added.

"It could've been better," she said.

"I know,"

"Treacherous time zones." I could feel her smirking. I chuckled lightly to lighten up the somber conversation.

"You are close to me," she said.

"No, there's a thousand miles in between". I answered.

"I was talking about emotional distance,"

"Ah, that furrow is even wider".

"No point in this conversation. Right?" she asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Goodbye then," she said.

"Bye"

"I said BYE!" she said again.

"Bye"

"I am going to cut the call!" she said.

"Yeah sure," I said.

"huh, I love you!" she finally said. She would never cut the call without saying that.

"hmm, me too," I said. I was sleepy.

After the call got disconnected, I stared blankly at the phone screen for a while and I wondered if she did it too, a thousand miles away.

I sighed a little and looked out of the window. Amidst the scorching sun, I could see a light shower.

I wanted to sleep but within few hours I had to leave for college. Didn't feel like sleeping. I kept my phone on the side table of my bed. On silent as always. Rose to my feet to make myself a cup of coffee. Strong, dark and less sugar, absolutely perfect for my taste.

A few minutes later, as I was sipping my coffee, I had to give a thought on what I have been doing with my life lately. One thing, I got straightly focused on my life and from the life I have been experiencing. If you are rich, you can slay the world, you can get anything on your pinky finger. And, I am obsessed with the thought of becoming rich one day. My only motto. Work hard. Be rich.

And talking about the love of my life, Zukroof. I have never been loved in a such a way that sometimes I don't understand If I am loving her enough to be able to receive this much love. I constantly deal with an inferiority complex. I am not at all confident of myself, I suffer from mood swings. I am constantly cautious about what people comment on me. And when Zukroof loves me like I'm the only guy she'll ever love. I just can't help. I don't mean to be rude to her, I don't want to lose her either. But, the thing with me is, I have never opened up to anyone in my life, I don't let anyone inside me. And that's why when I feel Zukroof willing to explore me, I just push her away. I love her to the point beyond her imagination. Because I'd be stupid to let a girl like her go. I just want to know how much is she willing to love me. She hasn't seen my flaws yet. She doesn't know a thing about me and I just want to know if I show her my flaws if I couldn't be strong would she love me the same?