Alexis Poniewierski
9:04 PM
4/18/2016
I am currently sitting at the kitchen table, sitting at the table by myself. Yet I feel my anxiety coming on. It's making my stomach hurt, and making my body feel nearly numb. But I feel like I'm suffocating because it's acting up so weirdly.
I have never had anxiety around people I've known since I was born. I literally feel like I'm going to pass out because of it. I feel overwhelmed, and it's making me feel physically ill. It's killing my stomach, it literally feels like my insides are cramping up. I'm also light headed, and I'm feeling like I'm going to come really close to hyperventilating.
I feel like I'm being over powered- like a huge weight is sitting on my shoulders and there is literally nothing I can do.
Someone suggested tea. But I don't have any- and I just don't know what to do. My ribs are starting to hurt, or maybe it's my lungs. I can't tell, alls I know is I am internally freaking out and it's making me miserable.
It feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest, I'm chewing on my lip ring consistently and I do it ten times more than normal when I am extremely anxious.
But how I'm feeling now? How I am currently feeling? It is literally worse than it has ever been.
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