Under Edd's Hat

Not Just Another Wednesday

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Kevin woke up at 8 am and looked down at Edd still in his arms. He placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. "Good morning, sleepy head." Edd sleepily opened his eyes and the panic was almost instant. He shot up and looked around the room and locked eyes with Kevin. He reached up to make sure his hat was securely in place and sighed for relief.
"Good morning, Kevin. Did you sleep well?" Kevin smirked and pulled Edd in for a swift kiss.
"Never better. Sorry to kick you out, but I have to go to work. You can stay for a bit if you would like." Edd nodded and stayed in bed as he watched Kevin get up getting ready fir a shower. Kevin turned around I saw Edd look at him with hooded eyes. He walked over and picked up Edd and was awarded with a squeel.
"Wanna join me for a shower?" Kevin winked at a blushing Edd.
"N-n-no. I'll be fine here. I'll make you some coffee while I wait"
"Choice. Edd. Hey, I'm only teasing you. I would never try anything until you're ready." Edd wrapped his arms around Kevins neck as Kevin grabbed either side of Edd's face, placing each thumb under his eyes. "I care about you, Edd. " he whispered.
Edd blushed and wiggled out of Kevins grasp. "Going to Enjoy your work before you move sections to the Hospital?" He yelled as Kevin closed the door. He heard the shower turn on and clothes fall on the floor.
"Nah I'm moving wards today. The patient I work with next week is getting a port put in today, so I want to help the doctor out to show the patient I'll be there for them the whole way."
Edd's heart stopped and he almost dropped the coffee grounds. Why didn't they tell him they were going ti have the nre Nurse work with him today? Should he just Tell Kevin now? He pulled out his phone and sent Eddy a quick text
Eddy
Hey. Kevin starts working with me TODAY. I don't know what to do.
To: Double D
We will figure it out together, Edd. Just wait until we get to the Hospital.

Edd made the coffee and sat down on the bed and waited for Kevin to come out of the shower. He heard the door swing open and Kevin sauntered out with a towel around his waist. "Like what you see?" He winked and wiggled his hips. He grabbed his scrubs and turned away from Edd and slipped his boxers on underneath the towel. He threw on his Emerald green scrubs and grabbed a to go cup from Edd and gave him a quick kiss.
"I'm sorry I can't be here with you today. We both have classes off Wednesdays and we can't cuddle." He pouts and pushes Edd out the door. "Just keep the shirt. It looks better on you anyways." He grasped Edd's face with both hands and looked into his eyes. "Stop looking so worried, Edd. It's just another Wednesday. I'll be fine. I'll learn a lot, this heart will be strong. I won't break because of a patient. We went through a lot of classes to learn how to cope. I'll see you tonight, I hope." Edd nodded and puckered his lips which Kevin smushed with his own.
Edd walked to his room and threw some sweats on and a loose T shirt. He grabbed an oversized hoodie so it wouldn't pull on the port or irritate his arms. Eddy grabbed his keys. "Let's hit the road, Jack."
They made the Journey over ti the hospital with ease. Edd was silent, debating on how he should react when Kevin walks in. "Hey, I'll let you fight this one battle on your own. I won't interfere. I'll drop you off. I'll pick you up in a couple hours, Ok? I know this will be one of the hardest things to do. But at least you've only been on one date with the guy. It can't be that bad."
Tears stung Edd's eyes as they pulled up to the doors. "You're right, Eddy. I'll be fine. " he walked into the Hospital and checked in. The Nurse who greeted him asked him to lay down on the bed and to take his shirt off. She covered him with blankets and asked hin to take off his hat. "Are you ready to meet my Prodigy? He'll come in soon to meet you and He will be the one to sterilize the area beforw the procedure. The doctor will be in shortly after." Edd nodded and nervously fiddled with his hat as he waited. The Nurse left and he heard Mumbles and laughed through the cracked door. He looked up and saw the back of the head of the man who held him in his arms last night. Kevin laughed and turned around. "Hello I'm Kevin, I will be the nurse tha-" He cut off his words mid sentence and looked at Edd. "What are you doing here, Edd." Edd opened his mouth to respond but was quickly cut off. "That was rhetorical. Do you thi- Do you kno-" Kevin gasped for air and Ran his fingers through his hair. "Am I just a game to you?" He choked out. He looked away and gripped the hair on top of his head.
"Kevin. I-"
"No. Don't explain here. But don't think this conversation is over. I have to maintain my proffessional facade until 8. But don't you DARE think you're going to walk away scott free." Kevin huffed and walked over to the sink to sterilize his hands and arms after he put on his mask and brought the tray over when he was finished. The other Nurse walked in and tue doctor did the same shortly after.
"Isn't he a doll? He requested to move here to-"
"I know, Nancy." The nurse smiled at Edd. "Of course. He probably told you when he walked in here! Silly me."
Nancy put an IV in Edd's arm while explaining to Kevin what she was doing. "See how hard it is to find a vein? The chemo he's been going through for the past 6 months really did a number on him. He had such beautiful hair when I first saw him. He was broken hearted when he lost it." Kevin nodded and glanced at Edd, with pain in his eyes. "We're going to numb he pain through this IV and put Saline in the other arm while he's getting the port put in. Poor baby is so dehydrated. What did I tell you?! That Eddy character said he woukd take care of it!" She huffed and shook her head. "Alright. Now, we're going to numb him right here." She pointed right above Edd's collar bone. "And right here on his chest. It will numb the whole area so he won't feel a thing!" Kevin nodded, focusing on where she was pointing. "Would you like to do the honors?" She smiled and handed Kevin the Syringe. Kevin spread his gloved hand on Edd's skin and inserted the needle.
Edd Hissed in air as he felt the brun of the medicine. He desperately searched Kevin's eyes for an answer. But Keving wouldn't return the glance.
After the incisions were made and the port was securely in olaces with clear tape over where it connected with his skin, they flushed the port out before it's first use.
The doctor left and Nancy Clapped her hands. " You did beautifully! Both of you! Where did Eddy go? You know, since he's not here why don't you stay with Edd and get to know him while he goes through his chemo today. You're used to this treatment, Edd. So it shouldn't be too hard on you today. Next week when we introduce the next treatment will be a lottle more harsh, But you're my trooper!"
Edd gave Nancy a kind smile as she left the room. He gulped and looked at Kevin, who was finally making eye contact with him.
"Does it hurt?"
"No. Not anymore. You get used to the burning after a while."
"So this is what you were hiding this whole time?"
"Yes."
"I thought it was some ugly scar or premature balding. I wish that was he case.. Edd. Why didn't you tell me. I would have understood."
"Because I didn't want to see you look at me the way you are right now."
Kevin looked away as tears pricked his eyes. "You knew the whole time that I would be the one who would take care of you next week. And you couldn't give me a warning?"
"I didn't know you would be helping me with the port today. I wanted to warn you this weekend but-"
"And that's the best excuse you could come up with? To let me live in oblivion for another whole week?" Kevin looked up at the florescent lights. "I won't do this here. I said I wouldn't. But part of me knew, Edd. The way you tried to talk me out of switching wards. How you flinched every time I was close to your hat. The long sleeves. So many hints. I was in denial. Now I'm just pissed. To think I carried you home every Friday."
Edd gasped as he took in the new information. "But that was Eddy. How did y-"
"You really think he could? In July, I was about to take a ride on my Bike, Lucy. Eddy was struggling with you to get you out of the car. Slapping your face, he looked so scared. I jogged up and grabbed you up in my arms. He fought me at first, but he knew he couldn't carry you all the way and just let it happen. You were so.. peaceful. Every time. Every Friday, I almost looked forward to it. Holding you in my arms. Caressing your cheek, whispering it would be ok. I always wanted to ask you on a date. But I was so busy with school, work. And finally, this past week I grew the courage to bring you out. I thought over winter break we could get to know eachother better. But you said you were going on a vacation so I picked up shifts all next week. I don't know whether or not to be mad, or happy I found out the truth this way."
Edd sat up and ran a hand through Kevins hair. He flinched and grabbed Edd's hand. "Don't touch me." Kevin sobbed. He put his face in his hands. He felt Edds hand reappear and his head and just let him. After a few nore minutes, they both looked up as the door opened. Eddy walked in with a big box of nerds. When he saw Kevin's face, his eyes grew wide and he almost dropped the box. "Wow. Gingers really do have a soul."
Kevin flicked him off and stood up. Nancy walked in and helped Kevin remove the needles from his arms and the tube that gave Edds chemo through the port. They flushed out the port.
"Oh honey. Why does it look like you're crying? I understand. It's hard to see him like this. But one day you will get used to it. Our Edd right here is a trooper! Go and wipe off your face. We don't want Edd here to get upset." Kevin left and Nancy cooed at Edd, helping him up and putting his clothes on. Eddy rolled up a wheelchair and helped Edd in.
"Mind if we use this again this week? I'll bring it back in Friday like we always do." Nancy smiled and nodded. Eddy handed Edd the box of nerds. Edd smiled up at him gratefully and put a small handful in his mouth. They were so sweet. Edd endulged in sugar, it was one of the things he could taste because of the chemo.
They got into the Truck and Eddy threw the wheelchair into the bed. He hopped into the truck and started it. "You really did a number on Shovel Chin, Huh?" Edd didn't answer his question and just looked out the window. He fought off sleep successfully and swung the door open when they parked. "Woah, Edd. Just get in the wheelchair, ok?" Edd shook his head and pushed Eddy away. Edd used so much force that he caused himself to fall back and his ass hit the concrete. He struggled to get up, and he quickly leaned over into the snow and and heaved the contents into it. Eddy squated down to Edd's level and patted his friends back. "It will be ok, Edd."
"It won't, Eddy! Stop feeding me lies! Because quite frankly, they're making me sick."
Eddy looked at the ground. "I'm only trying to help, Edd. Just let me."
"I don't want your help anymore."
"You don't mean that, Edd. You're drawing attention to yourself. Just calm down."
"Oh God forbid I dra-" He was cut off as he felt himself lifted off the ground and thrown over a shoulder. He felt a swift slap on his behind. "My word wh-"
"Don't talk to Eddy like that Double D or I will spank you again. If you are going to act like a baby pig I will treat you like one!"
"Go get 'em, Lumpy." Eddy smiled up at the Bigger Ed. He ran over to the dorm building and Eddy was shortly behind him. Once they got to Edd and Eddy's room, he layed Double D on the bed.
"Don't be like a sour Patch kid, Double D. People won't come back one day when you decide to be sweet."
Double D sniffed and glanced up at Ed. "You're correct. I'm sorry. Both of you. It's just really starting to get to me. I... I feel like I'm drowning in all of these emotions that are hitting me all at once."
Ed sniffed and flopped down on the bed next to Double D, Eddy did the same shortly after. They all situated themselves so they could fit in the small twin sized bed and fell asleep shortly after.

Edd was startled awake with three brisk knocks on the door. He struggled out inbetween the other two Eds, patting their backs to Gently wake them up. He looked at the clock and it was 8:30 pm. He held his breath as he opened the door to reveal Kevin. Kevin looked about 10 years older, dark circles under his eyes and his cheeks were swollen from crying.
"Let's continue. Our conversation from earlier. Meet me in my room in a bout 15 minutes." Kevin turned around without another word. Edd let out the breath he was holding.
He grabbed everything he needed and headed to the bathroom. He stripped his clothes and turned on the water as hot as it would go. He walked in and sat down, letting the water scortch his body, and the sounds of the water hitting the tub disguise his sobs. Why was he even worrying so much? They weren't even official. It's not like he could break up with Edd. Maybe he was just afraid of the words that would cut through him like the reality did the day he found out himself.
He stayed like that for 8 minutes before he quicly scrubbed himself and rinsed off. He threw on his clothes, slippers and beanie and headed out the room.
He knocked on Kevin's door and waited. Kevin opened the door and looked down at Edd, barren from any emotion. He gustured for Edd to sit down and followed him shortly after.
"I wanted a relationship with you, Edd. But I'm not so sure right now if you keep on lying to me like this. I know it's hard for you, but it's not fair. It's not even the fact that you didn't tell me right away. It was the fact of hiw you did tell me. You couldn't give me some kind of warning so I wouldn't lose it at work? Is it all a game?" He looked at Edd, Letting the question sink in. "I want to know what you want from me. I've never done anything to you to deserve this. I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. From everything. The lies, the cancer, how I was so stupid to where I didn't listen to myself when I was starting to catch on. I carried you up to your room every day for the past 6 months. And I fell a little harder ever time. I feel like all of that doesn't matter anymore. What if we decide to continue this and I fall all the way? What if it's out of pity? That's what scares me. It should scare you, too. The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt you. And from now on, what if you think everything I do for you is out of pity? Every I love you, every kiss. What am I going to do, Edd? Just tell me what to do."
Kevin leaned over and burried his face into his arms. Edd reached over and rubbed Kevin's back.
"You should do whatever your heart tells you. What I say shouldn't persuay you in any way. But you questioning yourself if you would do all of those things out of pity, is wrong. You aren't that kind of person, Kevin." Kevin leaned uo and placed his head against the wall his bed was on. Tears silently streaming down his face.
"Just give me a couple of days, Edd. I need a couple days to think things through. I'll come to you when I'm ready."
Edd nodded. He hesitantly brushed Kevin's face with his hand, wiping the tears away. His eyes never leaving the others.
"Kevin, may I kiss you? Just in case it's.." Kevin nodded. Edd took Kevins Face with both hands and leaned in. He took Kevins wet lips with his own. Kevin broke the kiss off with a sob and leaned his forehead against Edd's. Kevins sobs have gotten heavier, and he moved so he was holding Edd, Kevins left arm wrapped around Edd's neck and the other wrapped around Edd's waist, Edd's head leaned against kevins shoulder, unmoving.
Kevin's sobs wracked his whole body, and they both lost track of time. Just holding eachother, Kevin crying, and Edd lost in thought of Kevins words.