You Changed Me

Chapter 40

Nicki POV

"Why" was all I could ask as she got in shutting the door. "Sweetie I just want to say I'm so..." She says before I cut her off. "NO I'm tired of the sorry ass apologies. I want ANSWERS to everything I need to know from you. Don't beat around the bush or I'm leaving." I yell getting annoyed. "Ok well guess I'll start. When you told me you liked girls more than men I felt like I failed you as a mother because having feeling for women the way you do men is wrong Onika and you knew that. I don't know what I was thinking when I kicked you out it's just that I was so upset and your father never was home most of the time and it bothered me seeing you not get that fatherly love from him. The divorce was everything that could've happened to beside giving birth to you. The um drugs came a year or two after you left. I threw you out into the real world by yourself at such a young age without a lot of knowledge. Thought I lost you and would never see you again." She says as I shook my head.

"So you turned to drugs because you felt you lost me? I'm sorry but I don't believe you. I know you're lying so either tell me the fucking truth or I'm leaving you right here carol" I say getting worked up. "I met this guy not too long after you left. We fooled around for a while until he started being abusive with drugs. That's where I started trying the things he put in his body because he said it felt good which it did. So I had to find my comfort somewhere right. With you and your father gone I had no one else but him and drugs to make me feel good and forget about all the mistakes I've done in life." She says looking over at me. "I'm sorry but I just don't get it. I don't understand. What mother does that. Do you not know how much I've been through or how real the struggle was being on my own. Everything I got I earned and worked hard for. Going to school seeing girls with the new clothes, hair, and nails bothered me. And to know their moms did all that for them hurt my heart even more so I worked my ass off to get those things. Having parent meetings or field trips where parents can come was the worst. When I tried calling you you would be busy or send me to voicemail so can't say I never tried reaching out to you cause I damn sure did. " I say getting angrier and angrier.

"So what you get cleaned and think you can just walk yo happy go lucky ass back into my life and act like everything's ok when it's not? You got some nerve to EVEN be..... OUCH". I screamed out feeling sharp pains in my lower stomach. "Baby are you ok" she ask reaching over to touch me. "DONT touch me right.....NOW" I yell moving my hand back . "Go get my boyfriend.......NOW" I yell making her jump up getting out the car. I don't know whats wrong but I've been having back pains lately and right now I feel sick all of a sudden. "Baby what's wrong you good?" I heard meek ask opening my door. "Noooooo" I say holding my stomach crying. "Damn what's wrong baby. How you feeling" he ask helping me out the car as my legs trembled. "I feel light headed and my stomach hurts. I say as he held my hand. "We'll do you want to go on to the hospital to see what's wrong or do you want to lay down." He asked as I stopped breathing in and out slowly. "Hospital meek. I think something is wrong" I say crying. "Ight lemme go get my keys then we'll go." He says as I nodded my head. Once he came back people started coming out the house asking what's wrong as he told them. "We'll be right back. Y'all can go on and start leaving cause I can't have y'all at my girls house with her not here" he says getting in the car as everyone else did the same.

"Alright baby lets go" he says pulling out heading to the hospital. The pain started getting worse and I was becoming worried about my baby girl. Once we arrived he helped me out the car. Holding my hand we walked in going to the desk. He signed me in speaking with the lady at the desk when suddenly I felt warm liquid trickle down my legs. I panicked thinking it was blood but when I looked down it was clear. My eyes grew as I screamed looking at meek. "MEEK OH MY GOD MY WATER BROKE AND IT'S TOO EARLY FOR THIS TO HAPPEN WITH ME BEING ALMOST 6 MONTHS" I screamed as he looked down at the puddle. "Somebody get this girl to a delivery room NOW" the lady behind the desk screams as nurses came rushing over to me pushing me in a wheelchair taking me back.

2 hours later

Meek POV

"Look at her meek. She's so small" Nicki says looking at our baby girl inside the incubator hooked up to machines watching her chest go up and down. We were currently in the NICU. For some reason Nicki been under a lot of stress dealing with school and the doctors told us her blood pressure shot up high today. I looked over at her as she put her finger inside grabbing a hold to her fingers as she gripped on. She then started crying saying it was all her fault. "Look baby don't beat yourself up about this ok. Look at her she's a fighter ma and she's only going to get better and stronger everyday." I say as she sat back in the wheelchair. "I know but I relaxed and didn't put my body through stress she'd be still in my stomach kicking around meek. Take me back to the room please". She says as I nodded my head.

Once we got back I helped up in bed pulling the covers over her. "You need anything baby. I'm headed back to your house to get you some clothes." I ask as she nodded her head no. "Aight get some rest baby I'll be back" I say kissing her head leaving out. When I pulled up I saw that Na and my mom was still at her house. I went in as the rushed over to me. "Where is she, is she and Amayiah ok" they asked as I sat down on the couch. "Nicki yea. My baby girl no. Nicki went into premature labor soon as we got in. Doc said it was from stress and her blood pressure rising. She's been blaming herself since the baby was born. Amayiah is so small and cute but I hate seeing my baby hooked up to all those machines fighting for her life like that." I say trying not to breakdown and cry. "Awwww maaaaaan. Meek I'm so sorry to hear that baby. It'll all get better tho with prayer and the power of god. He chose you and Nicki to be that little girls parents for a reason so the both of you will get through this. Amayiah is a fighter remember that" my mom says as tears slid down my cheek. "When can we go up and see Nicki or do she want to be left alone" Na ask as I stood up. "When I get her back home. She doesn't want any hospital visit and of course y'all can't go see Amayiah with her being in the NICU but I do go a picture of her." I say showing them the pictures I took of her.

"Awww my poor baby look at her. She's so small" my mom says as Na shook her head. "I came to get her some clothes then head back up there. She's sleeping now so I know she's going to want me when she wakes up" I say walking up the stairs into her room. Once I was done I headed back downstairs. "Alright y'all we'll be back shortly. Love y'all" I say hugging them before leaving out getting in the car and heading back to be with my babies.

Sorry but I had to stress y'all. Especially since the other chapter barely got comments. Excuse errors, thanks for reading!!!!

--Morgan😘