forever Luke's sister |deel 3|

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•Jessica•
Het wordt langzaam aan doodstil in de zaal en dan wordt er omgeroepen 'ZIJN JULLIE KLAAR VOOR HET ZUSJE VAN LUKE HEMMINGS, DE VRIENDIN VAN NIALL HORAN' er klinkt gegil 'JESSICA HEMMINGS!!!!!!' ik loop op en begin te zingen.

I believe, I believe there's love in you
Grid locked on the dusty avenues
Inside your heart, just afraid to go
I am more, I am more than innocent
But just take a chance and let me in
And I'll show you ways that you don't know

Don't complicate it,
Don't let the past dictate
Yeah,
I have been patient, but slowly I'm losing faith

So please, I know you baby
I know you baby
So please, I know you baby
I know you baby

I believe, I believe you could love me
But you're lost on the road to misery
And what I gave to you
I could never get back!
Don't complicate it,
Don't drive yourself insane
Yeah,
Say what you will but I know that you want to stay!

So please, I know you baby
I know you baby
So please, I know you baby
I know you baby

Chemicals rushing in,
I know it's you that I belong to
I'm burning like a cannonball in the air
Crashing into who I belong to
Uh uh, uuuuh uuuuh uh

I have been patient, but slowly I'm losing faith

Please, I know you baby
I know you baby
So please, I know you baby
I know you baby

So please, I know you baby
(The shadows of your heart are hanging in the sweet, sweet air)
I know you baby
(I know you baby)
So please, I know you baby
(The secrets that you hide, control us and it's just not fair)
I know you baby

The shadows of your heart are hanging in the sweet, sweet air
I know you baby
The secrets that you hide, control us and it's just not fair
I know you baby

Ik glimlach naar het publiek 'Hebben jullie er zin in!' er wordt gegilt 'dit is i won't give up!'

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much that they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, I'm still looking up

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

No, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Ik zing nog een aantal liedjes en loop backstage, 'Jess wil je please nog een keeer het refrein van dat eerste liedje doen' smeekt Luke 'in de microfoon' voegt Niall eraan toe en ik zucht en knik.

So please, I know you baby
I know you baby
So please, I know you baby
I know you baby

Heel de zaal is doodstil, en backstage kijkt iedereen naar hoe ik het refrein zing. Ik geef de microfoon af en duw de nogsteeds stille one direction in deze volgorde het podium op Liam→ Zayn→ Harry→ Louis→ Niall. Dan beginnen ze op te treden en loop ik met Luke, Calum en Michael naar hun kleedkamer waar Ashton onder een deken op de bank ligt te slapen met Roxanne naast hem zittend.

Voor als je je af vroeg waarom 5sos niet optreede, Ashton is ziek geworden en die eigenwijze wortel heeft niemand iets gezegd zelfs Roxanne niet. Tijdens de soundcheck zakt hij in en was het een heel gestres om er iets op te vinden dus had ik aangeboden om in te vallen, dus tada zo komt het dat 5sos niet optreede.

Er wordt geklopt op de deur en ik draai me om en zie een grijnzende blonde bekende meid staan in de deuropening met een weekendtas.

'O my god'