moving on ☆ (sequel to msbfbf)

Chapter Five

Authors Note:

Hey guys I feel like a liar. I told you guys I would update but it took like 3 weeks. Anyways on a lighter note, this chapter has a little bit of #zerrie in it :) I'm so happy for them and I hate all the people that #cutforzerrie LIKE NO! YOUR STUPIDITY IS ANGERING ME! Idk man. Leave your opinions below, rather then that ily all xox - bella

Ellie's POV

"I want to die." I whispered to myself for the millionth time.

I was cold and lonely. My eyes were staring at the ceiling and darkness filled the air. It's been five days since I've talked to Harry.. Or talked to anyone in that matter.

My last five days were spent in my room locked away, hidden from all life and happiness. They were Spent awake though the nights, thinking, wondering. Too confused to sleep without nightmares.

A tear fell from my eyes.

No one understood what I was going through.

They all think Harry was 'just some boy'. Or I'm having 'teenage girl problems' and ill just get over it as if my life was some sort of TV series!

But it was so much more then that.

He saved my life. He kept me alive. If it weren't for him I wouldn't even be breathing right now I would be buried underground and slowly being forgotten by the world. But at the same time he broke my heart, stomped on it. Killed all feelings I've ever had.

And "teenage girl problems". Fucking goddamn teenage girl problems. Last time I checked every teenage girl didn't fall in love with the boy you hate, who also just so happened to save your life. Then decide to be with him for eternity because you live him so much, then he breaks your heart. And when you give him a chance. He ruins it.

But of course he's "just some boy" and this is just "a teenage girl problem".

I sighed maybe I should talk to someone.

I picked up my cellphone that wasn't too far from me and dialled up Eleanor. Or as my contact says "fizzy whizzy poof poof".

"Hello?" She said in a raspy voice after a few rings.

I looked at the time, it was 3:00am. She was probably sleeping. I forgot that I was the only one that spent nights awake.

"Hey it's me" I said giggling a bit to seem happy.

But just between you and me.. It was fake.

"Oh hey el belle! I thought you died in your room or something" she said laughing.

I wish.. I thought. But of course I didn't dare to say it. El is a total cautious freak. Like one of those people that would call an ambulance If you get a paper cut that sort of thing. So if I told her how much I wanted to die right now she would probably send me to a mental facility.

"haha funny.. Anyways I was wondering if I could vent to you about.... Harry" I said.

That was the first time I said his name in 9 months. The words pained me. As if they had the power to choke me from the inside.

"Oh, okay sure" she said.

I took a deep breath and started talking. We talked for all of the night. Well at least what was left of it. I cried, I laughed, I raged. But most of all I had a huge weight come off my chest I could finally go to sleep.

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I woke up in mid afternoon.. Well if you count four in the evening mid afternoon. I felt refreshed. Not any better but refreshed.

Like when you have a stomach ache and throw up. You feel refreshed but not any better.

I waked downstairs to eat. No one was home. And I realized how alone I actually was.

I grabbed a yogurt then opened the mail which was on the table under my name.

There was one.

A decorated envelope with embellishments on the card. In cursive writing wrote "Zayn Malik & Perrie Edwards"

I raised an eyebrow.

I loved perrie and Zayn both. But last time I checked they broke up. Guess they lied to me. I opened the Tiffany blue card to reveal gold writing.

"Please join us on September, 10th, 2013" for the joining of Zayn Javadd Malik and Perrie Louise Edwards"

"RSVP by August 10th"

I checked the calendar on my fridge.. It was August 9th. I have one day to procrastinate.

Then I looked back at the invite.

I was part of the wedding party

One problem.

Harry is too.