Eyes on You

Eyes on You 18

-Recap-

 “So, do you want to tell me about it?” He asked me kindly.

Should I tell him?

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I looked at Vince and I could see his sincerity there. I sighed to myself. Well, I guessed I had to try. I had no one else to turn to, except him. I meant if you didn’t count about my family or Matt. “Please don’t judge me!” I begged him.

I honestly didn’t want him to think that I was crazy, just like Matchbox 20’s song Unwell. I hoped that he could see me as me.

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

 “I won’t, Rose! You make me very curious! What happened?” He looked at me straight in my eyes.

“Okay. Um -- Since the first time I received these eyes, I kept having a vision.” I trailed off and felt a bit unsure at the moment. I looked around and tried to look at anything but him. I looked at the tree behind him, the bench, and even the bushes. Then I focused my gaze to an older couple that walking hand in hand. It was so sweet, but I still couldn’t stop my fast heart-beating. It was because of scared –mind you-. I was too scared to look at his expression.

Vince straightened himself up and looked at me in shock. “What do you mean? A vision?”

“Um – a vision, ugh—it’s like seeing something out of ordinary and weird for me?” I answered him, but I still didn’t have the gut to look at him. My eyes were darting around to any directions.

“Rose, please look at me!” He ordered me sternly. I looked at him a bit reluctant. His face showed no signs of disgust or looked at me as if I was crazy. Did you know what did he do? He just rolled his eyes at me. “I will never judge you, okay? I think of you as my own daughter. By the way, I know the meaning of a vision. I mean what kind of vision?”

He laughed at me and made me embarrassed. Well, I couldn’t think, that’s why I answered him with the meaning. I nodded at him and I didn’t even realize that I held my breath. I sighed in relief and decided to tell him. “Like I said, I kept seeing these two guys from someone’s point of view. I think she’s a girl, that’s why I asked you about the donor and how I got it right that it was a she that gave me these eyes.” I explained to him.

He nodded at me and asked again, “Can you explain it to me the whole things in details?”

I nodded back at him and answered, “Yes. And on each vision, I couldn’t see both of them clearly. Even though I could see the background clearly, but their faces were blurry. I tried to squint my eyes, but it didn’t work too. And last night I had a dream.”

“Dream?”

“Yes, Vince. It was like I was in a little girl’s body. I got her initials, but I couldn’t find her full name.”

I could see that Vince look uncomfortable. “Do you mind telling me her initials?”

I nodded at him, but I kept paying attentions to his expression. “Of course! S.M.”

I could see that he was really pale and he opened his mouth. He tried to say something, but nothing came out of his mouth. “Vince, do you know something about it?”

“I – I . . .” He stuttered. Oh my God! What was actually going on here? It seemed like Matt knew about this girl and Vince too. Vince’s expression was showing me that he actually knew the girl personally. This wasn’t his professional mask.