Liam's P.O.V.
How could I have let his happen? Why didn't I realise Meghan was unhappy? Why didn't I go and check up on her earlier? We don't know how long she was unconscious for, but the paramedics said we'd caught her just in time.
Meghan has had too many close encounters like this. The time her dad found her in California, the time Danielle pushed her in the pool and she almost drown and now this and the whole depression thing on top of it. I know she's my girlfriend and I love her to bits but... I'd hate to be her.
I was sat in the waiting room of the emergency part of the hospital. Louis was beside me and Zayn was on the other side. Niall, Harry and Aimee were in front of us. "I'm sorry mate. This is my fault." Louis said quietly. This is probably the hundredth time Louis has said that. He told me everything on the way to the hospital. He said how Meghan could look him straight in the eye and deny the kiss, so I'm not mad at her, or Louis. I'm mad at myself for letting her do this to herself.
"Louis, it's ok. I think everyone has a reason to blame themselves, but it isn't anyone's fault. Not even Meghan's. I've seen her like this before. It was before we met you lot. She says it becomes addictive and then almost like a habit. She's never gone this far though, but she said something just takes over her and before she knows it, her arms full of cuts. She's had help from everyone; me, Josh, counsellors - everyone. No one can change her. Apart from Liam. Liam, you've stopped her cutting for almost a year. I don't know how long she's done it this past while but I know she hasn't done it in ages. Not even when she broke up with you before you all started your world tour." Aimee explained to us. Harry put his arm around Aimee as she spoke. I buried my face in my hands. I felt Zayn place a hand on my shoulder. I just need to see her and tell her I love her.
"I'll go and find out what's happening with her." Niall said standing up.
"I'll come too." Zayn added. Zayn pulled his hand off my shoulder and walked off. I looked at Aimee who had faint tear stains on her cheeks. She gave me a weak smile. I couldn't even return it. I hated all this waiting about, it was driving me mad.
"Liam!" I looked up to find Niall waving for me to follow him. I looked at Aimee again who stood up and followed me, along with everyone else. "One person is allowed in. We've only got 15 minutes with her. Who's going in?" I looked at Aimee and went to tell her to go in but she cut me off;
"You go. You haven't seen her in months." I finally got a weak smile to form on my lips. I gave her a quick hug before pushing open the door to Meghan's room. The small window had the blinds closed, so Aimee and the boys couldn't see in. I doubt they would want to. It wasn't a pretty sight.
The room was almost dark since the main lights weren't on, just a small desk lamp in the corner. Meghan was lying on the bed, pale and fragile looking. She had multiple wires sticking out of her from everywhere. Her left arm was bandaged up. She must've cut herself in more places that her arm because her clothes were blood stained. Although her eyes were closed, I could still tell she was in pain. I presumed it was a mixture of physical and emotional pain. She looked like she was dead. I don't mean that in a mean way, but it's the truth. The only reason I knew she was dead, was because of the heart monitor beeping steadily but annoyingly in the corner.
I didn't realise a nurse had followed me into the room. I sat down on the chair beside Meghan and jumped when the nurse started speaking. "May I ask how you know Meghan?"
"I- I'm her boyfriend." I said shakily. I hadn't spoke in what feels like hours. The nurse nodded.
"We noticed she's self harmed before due to faint scarring on her skin." I nodded a little. "But this time she's done herself a lot of damage. She was very close to dying because she lost so much blood. Once we examined her the first time, we noticed that Meghan cut her wrists where all the main veins are. This is why there was so much blood lost. As we speak, she is undergoing a blood transfusion. Because there was so much blood lost, it can take up to about four hours. We don't think she'll wake up tonight, but hopefully tomorrow."
