Alone on the water

CHAPTER THREE

*Chapter 3*

I get home and as soon as I open the door Taylor wraps me up into a big hug. She puts me down and is see the big smile on her face.

“I’ve missed you so much! Ugh, I can’t live without bugging my little sister!” Taylor teases.

I put my stuff down and walk into the family room with my sister; my mom looks up at us.

“I guess we aren’t going out to dinner anymore because your father is staying at work a little later. You can go back to Niall's now Mimi”

“No that’s alright mom, he was going out anyways. I'll just hang out with Taylor” I grab her hand and lead her to my room. I close the door and make sure my mom can’t hear us from the other side.

“What’s with all the secretive stuff Mimi?” Taylor asks.

“I need to tell you something and its sort of a big deal”

“Okay but me first” Taylor smiles at me.

I nod which tells her to go ahead and tell me her news. She slowly brings her left hand up and holds it in front of my face; she stands there humming for a few minutes. I didn’t notice it at first but once I did I was stunned.

“YOU'RE ENGAGED?” I ask loudly, Taylor brings a finger to her mouth and tells me to shush.

“Yeah! Louis proposed the other night and we're getting married next summer”

“Did you tell mom yet?”

“Obviously not, she'd flip her shit, she didn’t even notice the damn ring”

I laugh a little, “Congrats Taylor, you two will be very good together”

“Thanks sis, now what do you need to tell me” she sits on my bed and pats a spot next to her.

I sit down next to her and put my hands in my lap. I didn’t know what to say really, I thought about how I would tell her on my walk home. I hesitated and stuttered on my words until she yelled at me to spit it out.

“I think Niall's cutting himself!” I yell, I cover my mouth with my hand.

Taylor looks down at the floor; I knew that she couldn’t believe it just like me. Taylor always saw how happy Niall was and now that I told her this it was like taking a bullet to the chest.

“How do you know?” she asks quietly.

“Well we were standing in his kitchen and he messed up his hair and I saw scars… scars like these” I lift up my sweater sleeve.

My sister knew about my scars and she knows I wouldn’t start again. I saw my sisters face become even sadder, I didn’t want her to feel bad for me or anything. I just didn’t know what to do for Niall.

“But that’s not the only thing that happened” I say. “He kissed me too”

Her head shot up and she looked at me, “He kissed you?”

I couldn’t help but smile a little “Yeah, and it was perfect”

She smiled a little but looked down at my arm again and her smiled faded. I pulled my sleeve down to cover my arm back up.

“Well you need to help him stop; you can’t let him do that anymore” she says to me quietly.

“I know, I’m sneaking out tonight, maybe I can help him then”

She nods and stands up, she walks towards the door but before she opens it she turns back to me.

“Just promise me; no matter how hard it gets for you, you won’t take out your old blades?”

I didn’t want to promise her that, because what if I did on accident? I guess I will have to try my best.

“I promise” I nod at her.

She opens the door and closes it slowly behind her; I get off my bed and walk towards my dresser. I open the top drawer and move all the underwear and bras out of the way. Finally I reach the back of the of the drawer and I see my blades, I grab them and hold them in my fingers.

The cold metal giving me Goosebumps that goes all the way up my arms. I craved that feeling of them scrapping against my skin, but I looked at them and put them back away.

Not tonight.

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It was 11 and I was heading to the stop sign at the end of my street. I held my jacket close to my body as the cold winter hair hit me. My eyes and nose scrunched up because I thought that somehow it would help the wind from hitting my face, but obviously it didn’t do anything to help.

I reached the stop sign and of course Niall was late like every time, this was why I didn’t like to sneak out with him, he would have me standing out here in the dark for minutes on end. Finally I saw him running out of breath to meet me.

“Sorry I’m late” he panted.

“Uh huh, can you just take me to where you said you were?”

Niall nods, he didn’t want to talk because he was trying to catch his breath. He took my hand and dragged me across the street. We walked through downtown for a while, until we made it to Lake Michigan. I looked at him like he was crazy.

“What are we doing here?” I ask.

Niall sits down on a bench facing the water “Just sit, let’s talk”

I sigh and sit next him; he puts his arm around me and pulls me close to him. We sat in silence; I didn’t know what he meant by talking because we weren’t doing any of it.

I became colder and shivered a little and hung on tighter to my winter jacket. Niall pulled me even closer, it didn’t help stop the cold but I did feel my face and body start to get hot.

“I wanted to bring you here to tell you something Mimi” Niall finally said.

“Okay, what is it”

“I've been cutting myself…a lot, and sadly I know you have a lot of experience with that stuff so I was wondering if you could help me stop. And help me be happy again like you.”

“I know you were cutting yourself Niall, you can’t hide that from me. But I’m happy you realize you have a problem, that’s the first part to becoming better. If you ever need anything you know you can tell me” I assure him that I will always be there for him.

He smiles his adorable Niall smile and kisses my cheek softly, “I'm okay, for now all I need is you” his grip on me got tighter as he pulled me closer to him. I looked down at his arms, under his jacket and shirt there was marks, marks that we both knew won’t ever go away. I cuddled my body as close as I could to Niall. I wanted him to know I wasn’t leaving him.

-end of chapter-