Alone on the water

CHAPTER TWENTY

*Chapter 20*

During dinner Harry sat across from me. Harry had a normal black suit on, it was nothing fancy but it did make him look dressed up. He always looked at his plate then up to me. I would give him a perching stare. I wanted him to leave me alone, but I knew that wouldn't happen.

"Mimi, have a drink" my sister shoved some champagne in my face, "it'll calm you down" she slurs in my ear.

I take it and chug it down, setting the glass in front of me and every one turned to me, their eyes wide with disbelief that I could do that. I shrugged and got back to my dinner.

"Why don't we all go in the family room?" My dad suggests.

I watch them all pour into the family room, but I didn't see Harry. I ignored it and poured myself another glass of champagne, and another... And another. Soon I was buzzed, or drunk, I couldn't tell the difference. My head felt light and airy, I felt like I could fly.

I stumbled down the hall into my room. I swung the door open and say Harry sitting on my bed, it sounded like he was crying. My vision blurred a little but I could still see him. He rubbed his eyes and sniffled.

"Oh! Mimi, I didn't see you there, ill go" Harry tried getting up but I told him to sit back down.

Why was he crying?

Why did I stop him from leaving?

Why was he not staying by is own will? You would think after all the shit he's done he wouldn't even have mentioned leaving.

"What?" He asked me.

"Stay." I tell him, plopping down next to him.

"You know Harry, life...Is a bitch" I turned to him. My eyes half closed as my speech slurred.

"You're drunk" Harry points out.

"You're sexy"

What was I saying? Was it the champagne talking or was it really me talking? I was so confused I didn't know what was happening.

"Mimi? Do you know what you're saying?" Harry asks, sounding just as confused as I was.

"What did I say?" I already forgot what I said to him.

"You called me sexy" Harry tells me, scooting a little closer.

"I did? Oh! I remember that, but I thought I said that to someone else, now I can't remember"

"So...you can't remember what you just said to me?" Harry asks, scooting close to make our legs touch.

"I was talking to you?" I felt like such an idiot, I couldn't remember anything I just said, or who I said it to, or what I just did.

Harry laughs at me and smiles, "yes, Mimi you were" he looks down and back up at me, "you're adorable when you're drunk"

I look at him, "I'm not drunk!"

Harry rolls his eyes, grabs my face and kisses me. He kisses me hard, with lots of tongue and lots of force. I didn't stop him though, I gently touched his face, feeling his rough jaw bone on my hands. No matter what, Harry will always be a perfect kisser. No matter how much I love Niall...wait Niall.

I shoved Harry off of me and he fell onto the floor.

"What did you do that for?!" I tell at him.

"What? Kissed you?"

"Yes! You- you kissed me! You know I'm dating Niall, you know I'm in love with him!" I scream at Harry.

"You don't seem too "in love"" he put air quotes around that, "after you just kissed me like that"

I rolled my eyes.

"Just get out of here Harry" I watched him get up and walk to the door. "Wait!" He turns to look at me, "you can't tell anyone about this, Niall can't find out"

Harry smirks at me.

"I'm not making any promises."

Then he opens the door and walks out, leaving me sitting there looking like an idiot.

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I must've passed out after that because I woke up and it was around 3 in the morning.

I had a bunch of texts and calls from Niall, his voice mails were adorable.

"Hey Mimi, I don't know if you're sleeping right now or if you're awake, well obviously you're asleep if you wouldn't answer my call. Hah, anyways I just want to tell you that I'm here and my dad said we have to come home a few days early for a work problem so that mean home coming sex!... Wait, I should've kept that to myself. Okay I'm making things awkward, well I love you Mimi and hope you're having a horrible time without me being there. Love you" then it was over.

I laughed and smiled at my phone. Niall was the cutest.

I got up and walked down the hall to the kitchen for a midnight snack, then I saw Louis sitting at the dinning room table. I walked over and decided to sit with him. He looked upset.

"Louis, are you okay?" I whisper sweetly.

He shakes his head, "I don't know if I can go through with this Mimi"

I knew exactly what he was talking about.

"Don't say that Louis. Taylor loves you, if you let her go-"

"I know, I know. I just don't want to get married, have kids, then grow old together and have us fighting all the time and we grow to hate each other. I want to love her forever and I'm thinking that maybe we shouldn't get married, but stay together and have kids and a family. You know?"

My head was throbbing, hangover.

"What kind of stupid ass idea is that Lou? You really think that's going to solve anything?"

He puts his hands in his air and pushes it back.

"I don't know"

I sigh loudly and shoot closer to him.

"Listen. You and Taylor will love each other forever, you won't hurt her and she won't hurt you, don't break this relationship because you're scared. That's like me breaking up with Niall because he's suicidal"

I cover my mouth with my hand. I didn't mean for that to slip out. I stand up and push my chair in.

"Silly brain, that must be the booze talking. I should go to sleep now, see you in the morning" I walk towards the hallway fast.

"Mimi stop! What are you talking about?"

I stopped in my tracks and turn around.

"Niall may or may not have tried killing himself and I have or have not saved his life and he may or may not be thinking about doing it again" I put on a fake smile and Louis could obviously see right through it.

"Niall's tried killing himself?!" Louis's voice raised.

"Be quiet! The whole neighbor hood doesn't need to know!"

Louis walks over and brings me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Mimi, I didn't know"

I push him off of me. "I don't need a pity party, I've got this one. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going back to sleep. Good night"

I walked back into my room and sat on my bed. Going back to sleep was a load of bull shit. I wasn't going back to sleep. I had to find a way to keep Harry's mouth shut, and it wasn't going to be with mine.

-end of chapter-