Alone on the water

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

*Chapter 17*

Niall and I ended up not eating, we went home right after. He dropped me off at my house and then took himself home. I should’ve just listened to him when he said to let it go, but no, I had to get up in Harry's face. I’m such an idiot.

I walk inside and see Taylor with Louis on the couch, my parents on the one across from them. Taylor looked upset and Louis looked wasted beyond belief. My parents didn’t look happy either.

“Mimi, sit down” my dad motions for the chair next to them.

I quickly walk over there, he already looked mad enough I didn’t want to piss him off even more.

“Mimi, I want you to be honest with us.” My mom looks at me.

I furrow my eye brows, “What is this about mom?”

“Moms just got a big stick up her ass”

I snap my head around at Taylor; she really just said that didn’t she? I wanted to laugh and hit her on the shoulder at the same time.

“Taylor, watch your mouth” my dad tells her, not getting mad.

That pissed me off, if I said that I would’ve been screamed at and grounded for like a week. But if Taylor says that all she gets is a ‘Taylor watch your mouth’.

“Mom seriously, what is this about? If this isn’t relevant to anything then can I leave now?” I sigh.

“Did you know about Louis and Taylor?” she asks me quietly, like they weren’t supposed to hear.

I look at Taylor, she just looks at Louis, who looks like he's going to pass out. He was really drunk. Louis looks over at me, I didn’t know if I should say that I did now or that I didn’t know. But then Louis slowly nodded and I knew what to say.

“Yes, but here’s the thing mom. They are in love, and I think they need to get married. I mean look at Taylor, she’s looking at Louis, worried, wondering if he'll be okay. And Louis, he is trying to make this relationship work, with you guys and with me. He even told me he loves Taylor more than anything and he will fight for her. I love their relationship and hope I have one like theirs someday. And you, mom and dad, don’t love their relationship then I don’t know who you are. You were always the people who told us to love who we wanted. No matter age or gender. These two were made for each other, so don’t tell me they aren’t getting married because they are, Louis has my blessing”

I look at Taylor and she smiles at me, I knew I did well. I looked back at my parents who looked stunned that I said that. I was a little stunned myself.

“Wow Mimi, I didn’t know you felt that way about them” my dad chuckles.

“That may all be true Mimi but look, they're young. Louis won’t be home enough for Taylor. I just don’t trust them together” my mom sweetly says.

“Mom, Louis is 26, I think it’s time he’s found a wife. And he obviously wants to do that with Taylor. And Taylor wants to do that with him, you need to let them live their lives too. You can’t always get in the way”

My mom nods and no one says anything. It was awkward, after my big speech and standing up for my sister and her boyfriend. But I knew Taylor would repay me somehow, I didn’t know how but I knew she would.

“I'm going to my room, I'm done with all this drama today” I groan getting up and walking into my room.

I spend too much time in here, I need to get out and actually be with everyone. But that’s right… I hate everyone.

I really want to cut but if I did Niall would find out and he'd get upset; probably threaten to cut himself also. I didn’t want him to do that; I needed him to get better. I don’t like when he’s upset, it just makes me upset.

I decided to call him and apologize, apologize for all the crap I did today.

“Hey” I say softly.

“Hi Mimi, what do you need?” he answers.

“I'm sorry for what happened to you earlier, I should’ve just listened to you and let it go”

“It's not your fault. It’s mine, I let him push me around, and I let him get to me. I let him make me depressed, it’s all my fault like everything else” then Niall started crying.

“Baby no, it’s not your fault” I try reassuring him.

“Yes it is I’m such a failure” he sobs.

“Niall stop, you are NOT a failure, you're one of the most amazing people I know. Don’t you EVER tell me that it’s your fault. Its Harrys fault for doing that to you; he should be the one feeling guilt, not you”

Niall sniffles, “Sure Mimi whatever you say, I have to go” and then he hung up.

I breathed out loudly and threw my phone across the room. I felt like screaming, I just needed to get my anger out somehow, then I just started crying. Hearing Niall cry could make anyone cry. He was always the boy who laughed and smiled; now he’s the boy who always cried and frowned.

Once I was crying I couldn’t stop. It came out in buckets; I was curled up in my bed, the lights off and the comforter over me to muffle my sobs. I didn’t want to move, I wanted to sit there and cry. Soon I forgot why I was crying, and no more tears were coming out, I must’ve cried all I could. I gasped for air, sniffling in the process. Then I heard my phone go off. I made an annoyed noise and went to look for it. When I found it and read the text message from Niall, I couldn’t move.

‘Goodbye Mimi, I love you. Harry will be happy soon, he'll have you all to himself’

-end of chapter-