Living A Fantasy (CaptainSwan AU)

Chapter 18

I'm currently at lunch with Killian and Ruby. Killian is sitting to the left of me and Ruby is sitting across from us.

I haven't asked Killian about having dinner and meeting my parents on Saturday yet. I'm a bit nervous considering what I did to myself. He will probably hate me when he finds out. He'll probably leave me like everyone else.

I pushed around the food on my tray with my fork. This shit is disgusting. School lunches are quite disgusting. They rarely have anything that tastes good at lunch.

My thoughts were interrupted when Killian put his hand on my thigh. The thigh that I cut myself on.. I flinched and winced. He looked at me strangely.

"Are you alright, love?" I looked over at Killian.

"Y-ya, I'm fine." I bit my lip, nervously.

Killian stood up and pulled me up by my arm. "No, come with me." I reluctantly followed him. We went into a hallways with no one in it. "Swan, what's wrong?"

Tears started to fall. He's going to find out sooner or later.. "I did it again." I said quietly and covered my face with my hands.

He knew what I was talking and immediately engulfed me in his arms. I rested my head against his shoulder and he put his chin on my head. "Why did you do it.." I heard him whisper.

"I-I felt like no one could love me. I thought you would just end up leaving me like Neal." I sobbed into his chest.

Killian didn't say anything. He just continued to hug me. He then pulled back after a few seconds and put a light kiss on my forehead. "I would never leave you."

I put my hand on his cheek and pulled his face to mine and our lips connected in a soft kiss. It was slow but sweet. The kiss ended quickly and I wiped my tears away.

"I'm sorry." I apologized.

"Don't apologize, Emma." He looked at me in the eyes and smiled. I smiled back at him.

"Well..we should probably get back to Ruby.. We seem to leave her at the lunch table alone a lot." I chuckled a bit.

Killian laughed. "Ya, let's go back." He said and took my hand in his. We walked back to the lunch table to see Ruby texting on her phone with a smile on her face. 

Killian and I sat back down. "So, who are you texting?" I said with a small smirk. I'm trying to act like nothing happened.. I would rather not have Ruby worrying about me again.

Ruby's head snapped up and she blushed. "Oh, um, no one." She stuttered.

"Oh my gosh! You have a crush, don't you?!" I said a bit too loudly.

"No! It's nothing!" She said and put her phone back into her purse.

"No, no. Tell me who it is!" I smiled.

"Come on Ruby, who is it?" Killian said from beside me.

Ruby bit her lip. "I-um..I need to tell you guys something." She looked down at her lap. "I'm..um..bisexual.." She said quiet.

I big smile spread across my face. "Oh my gosh, Ruby! Why did you tell me?!" I said, happily. "Now, who's this crush of yours?"

"Her name is Dorothy.. She's a bit new to the school but we've been hanging out a lot recently. But I know she doesn't like me back." She said sadly.