Marinas pov
After a long day of sleeping and throwing up I started feeling better. I was still super warm. I crawled out of the bunk and pulled my hair back into a ponytail walking in the lounge
" hey sicky " Sid smiled.
" hi" my voice cracked. Well turns out I lost my voice. I sat down next to him and he hugged me.
" you still hot?" Corey asked as I nodded.
" obviously " Jay said pointing at me as I looked down. I was just wearing a bra and my shorts.
" and?" I said my voice cracking, half there. My phone started ringing and I walked back to my bed picking it up
" hello?"
" hey. You ok Marina "
" I'm doing better. I've been sick all day and also lost my voice but I feel a lot better now. What's up Steven?"
" just wanted to check in. I'm sorry you've been feeling sick all day. Hey how about we text since you barely can talk"
" ok" I hung up as we started texting and I sat next to sid as he wrapped his arms around my waist
" who's Steven?" Jay asked in a snobby voice which took me off guard.
" he's my good friend"
" rrrright. Good friend" he said rolling his eyes. Is he serious right now. I stood up and walked up to him.
" do you have a problem Jay. "
" just wondering who you were cheating with" that's it. I slapped him.
" Jay. I have no fucking idea where this attitude came in but it better stop because I'm not in the fucking mood. You fucking met Steven before anyway he has a girlfriend and he's only like a brother. Sorry that I love Sid if this is what it's about but that was the rudest thing ever. " I said looking at him as the others stared
" well I don't think Sid is the guy for you" I rolled my eyes
" and you think that you are. Treating me like that? "
" well at least I'm not a snob that gets a girl pregnant after dating her for 4 months " he said standing making he look up at him.
" I'm not fucking pregnant you asshole. I'm just sick" I yelled as best I could.
" well you might wanna check" I rolled my eyes. I looked at him as my mind started to play tricks on me and putting Toms face over his as his voice echoed in my head.
" you whore. You don't deserve love. No one loves you. " I covered my ears and closed my eyes going into a full blown anxiety attack. I felt his hand on me as I backed away and started screaming
" no! No! No! Stop. I'm not a whore. No. People love me"
'Go kill yourself' his voice echoed as I opened my eyes to the guys trying to reach for me calling my name. I turned and ran into the bathroom locking the door and sitting on the floor sobbing.
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The door opened as Sid ran in and scooped me into his arms. I began flailing myself as he held onto me.
" Marina. It's me. It's Sid" I stopped and looked at him as tears still fell. I hugged him tightly as I felt his heart beating fast.
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After my melt down I calmed down as Sid waited for me to stop crying.
" you ok?"
" memories... " I said softly as the guys looked at me funny as Sid held me tighter.
" don't think about him. Hes gone and I won't ever let him get near you again. " he said kissing my head.
Sid's pov
I held her tightly as she began calming down. How sick of a guy this dude is. Now she still suffers from it. I sighed as I rubbed her back.
" I love you" she whispered.
" I love you too. So much Marina. " I picked her up and laid her on her bunk.
" I'll be right back. I'm gonna let the guys know you are ok. " she nodded as I walked into the lounge where the guys were sitting. I glared at Jay as he looked at me sadly
" is she ok?" Corey asked looking at me worried.
" yea. She's doing better and you don't pick fights like that with my girl. I know you are upset but move on. That's what I had to learn to do. Hate me whatever but don't turn that shit on Marina. " I said.
" I feel bad. I have no idea what came over me until she started freaking out. " I nodded
" what did she mean by memories?" Chris asked as I tried to stay calm.
" after her dad died she had to live with her mom and stepdad. Until she was able to leave the house he did things to her. No one listened to her. The memories come back and put her like this and let's say if I ever meet this dude you guys need to hold me back or I'll go to jail" I said clenching my fists sighing. The room was silent for a little bit as the bus stopped. I looked outside to see we were at a drugstore
" you guys said you needed to stop " I nodded and looked at Corey and Chris.
" can you guys go in and get one. I'm gonna get back to Marina " they nodded as I went to the back of the bus
" hey. Why did we stop?" She asked.
" they stopped at a drug store and Corey and Chris are getting a test for you"
" well perfect timing because I need to pee like a son of a bitch" she laughed sitting up.
" are you sure you wanna take it now?" She nodded.
" I'm curious"
" what if you are?"
" we will figure it out at that point " I nodded as the guys came on the bus
" finally. I'm literally about to piss myself " she said grabbing the test.
Marinas pov
I went into the bathroom and followed the tests directions.
Once it finished I left it for five minutes. When it was time to look I felt like I couldn't. I was terrified to see. I took a breath and looked down and sighed. Negative. I was relived but a bit sad. I put the cap back on the part and walked out of the bathroom as all the guys were waiting. I handed it to Sid and he sighed.
" it's negative. "
" I told you guys I wasn't pregnant " I laughed as they hugged me as went into the lounge. Sid handed the test back to me as i threw it in the trash.
" relived but disappointed?" I asked crawling into bed with him. He nodded playing with my hair.
" well we can try a later. Jay did have a point " he nodded as I laid my head down as slowly started to fall asleep dreaming about a future baby.
A/N
Hey guys I'm sorry about the late update. I ended up getting sick Monday night and staying all night being horribly sick. Yesterday sucked because I couldn't look at my iPod without getting motion sick so it was difficult. Towards the the end of the day I was able to watch tv and sleep and drink tons of water. Today I'm feeling a lot better but still a little sick. No more throwing up thank god. I hate it so much. I just thought it was funny just so happens that I get sick when I update this chapter because this was not planned. I'm already on like chapter 43 on this story in he writing so this was not planned at all. Hope you guys like it and hope all of you are taking care of yourself. Stay sic!
