Maris pov
That night the guys crashed at our place again. I put Mark to bed about an our ago as I set the timer on the big tv in the living room. Half of them already passed out and others getting there. I turned the night off
" night guys"
" night Mari" I walked up the stairs as I joined a passed out Sid in bed. I laughed down and sighed. My head was racing though I was tired. My mind went back to the time when it was just me and Sid in the house after Paul's death.
* flash back*
I had been lying down in my bra and underwear for 3 days straight just crying. I barely got up to use the bathroom or drink some water so I didn't die of thirst. There was a sudden knock on my door as I walked downstairs. I opened the door to Sid as he looked me up and down.
" can I come in still? It's just me this time" I nodded moving out of the way as he walked in. I shut the door.
" help yourself to anything. I'll be in my room. " he nodded as I walked up to my room. A few minutes later he walked in and sat next to me.
" I miss him" he nodded as we stared at each other for a little bit.
" your really pretty and that causes problem for me?" He pointed downward as I say he had a hard on. I sat up and crawled over to him. I kissed him for the first time as we started to make out. About 5 minutes he pulled his shirt off and pushed me into my back slowly. I let his hands glide all over my body as I moved my hands down his pants, stroking him. He let out a soft gasp as the sudden touch. Soon clothes were all off, he put a condom on and he was inside of me.
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After we finished he threw the condom away as I took a breath and looked at him. He smiled at me as he crawled on the bed and started to kiss my stomach. He's kisses getting lower until I felt his tongue. I grabbed into the little hair he had gasping from pleasure.
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I put my under and bra back on throwing an over sized t shirt on and sighed sitting on the bed to see him already dressed besides his shirt.
" I'm sorry about that. That was uncalled for" I said.
" no I wanted to do that. Yea we might be in a relationship but you were really good. Amazing actually " he shrugged.
" just don't tell the guys about this ever. I feel we should wait to see how this goes before we move onto thing like that again. He nodded
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-month later-
I've barely eaten and it's starting to really show. I've become extremely thin but I try to hide it away from the guys since they would say something which means baggy clothes. We were all gonna go out to dinner and they told me to were something nice. I tried to say no but I felt bad. I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed. I wore a nice back dress that hugged my body showing my ribs and my flat stomach, leaving my thin arms and legs exposed. I wore black heals as sighed again as the doorbell rang. I walked down the stairs and opened the door to see all the guys in suits. I nervously smiled as they all looked my body. I back out of the way letting them in since we still had a half hour before we nodded to leave. I shut the door and stood as they sat down leaving a small space next to Sid.
" Marina.." Corey asked looking at me softly.
" yea?"
" how much do you weigh... " I put my head down sadly.
" 96.." I mumbled as he shook his head and Sid got up and hugged me.
" is it from what happened" I shook my head
" I'm sorry guys " I said as I began to cry. They huddled around ms and hugged me.
" it's ok. Les cancel reservations and stay here and order pizza. Who needs a fancy restaurant?" Corey smiled as they guys all nodded. I smiled and nodded.
" go change into something your comfortable in" i nodded as I walked upstairs changing into some tights and a loose tank top. I would go in my underwear but if just worry them more. I walked down the stores to see most of them gotten comfortable. I smiled and sat on Jims lap since he makes a good chair.
" you are so light" he said. I shrugged as he hugged me from behind.
" we are here for you. If you need our help we are 100% here for you. " I nodded thanking him.
*end of memories*
I felt Sid wrap his arm around my waist
" you ok?" I nodded wiping tears from my cheeks.
" just getting lost in memories. Remember after Paul died and we barely knew each other but had sex anyway" he nodded tiredly. I smiled and kissed him.
" go to bed. "
" you need sleep too".
" I will. Just go back to bed" he nodded laying down and soon falling asleep. I laid there for two hours on my phone before I sighed and got up. I'm not getting any sleep tonight. I threw on some shorts and a tank top with cut sides and pulled my hair into a messy bun. My go to hair style. I slipped on my vans and grabbed my keys and wallet. Let's get started on this packing and moving. I silently ran down the stairs to a ton of snoring. I walked out locking. The door behind me as the warm air touched my skin. I got in to the car starting it up. Hopefully the guys won't here but it is 2 am.
