It was not in the plan

Chapter 16: Sorry Bob Part 2

Henry POV:

"Hey" I said as Violet approached me. I forced myself not to stare.

"Hello, Henry" She said addressing me by my first name.I would've corrected her except the words came out of her mouth seeming much more tantalizing than they should've been. I snapped out of my daze, handing her the sandals in my hand.

"Thank you" She said pulling a hand through her hair to get it out of her face. Her beautiful green eyes bright with curiosity, it seemed like they had a spark in them. There was a small mole on her face, I hadn't noticed before. I couldn't explain how truly gorgeous she really was.

"You wanted to talk to me about something?"  She said, shifting feet.

"Oh- yeah" I mentally face palmed and took a breath " don't you want to sit down?"

"Alright" She said, she turned ready to move to the closest bench. She looked at me for a split second waiting to see me move. I smiled and sat down on the bench next to her, the bench was small so our bodies were touching. I put my hands on my knee's, a fake smile, nervous and sick about what I was about to say.

"Okay" I said slowly, choosing my words carefully "I really don't know where to start- not that I owe you an explanation"

I paused, cringing a little bit. I sounded like such a douche. Good.

"But I need to tell you that, I can't tutor you anymore" I said.

She looked shocked at my words, I instantly felt bad wanting to take back my words, she was silent for a few moments . Music faded off into the distance and laughter was heard all around us. Hurt replaced her confusion and she looked at me from under her long eyelashes, as if to search my face, as if she expected me to suddenly yell out 'Prank!'

I couldn't do that, I had to cut off everything that linked me to her now. Before all my self control was lost. It hurt now but its for the better, it would be uncontrollable in the future. I needed not to be selfish right now.

"Wait- wha?" Her words faded off, she swollowed as if she really was going to cry.

"We need to stop this tutoring thing" I told her. I shook my head, trying to disperse the regret.

"Why?" Her words sounding strained.

"Because I don't wanna do it anymore" I lied,

"We only had a few lessons" She said, she wordlessly begged me to stop and say it was all a prank.

"Yeah well you can have a tutor for ever" I said. It would hurt her. She needed  to be hurt so she could hate me. I wanted her to hate me. No I don't, I really don't.

It was no lie that I had helplessly fallen for her in these couple of weeks we had spent time. Each lesson was harder than the first. If only i just hadnt agreed to this in the first place, I wouldn't be having to do this in the first place. I wouldn't have to hurt her like this.

"So are we done then?" I asked,my chest was on fire, No no no no

"Yeah" She stated with no emotion "Done"

"Okay" I said letting out an breath of relief. I couldn't stand to hurt her more.

"Yeah" she said, she looked numb from emotion, her face paled. I decided to leave before the wall that I had been desperately trying to keep up was deteriorated completely. I got up from the bench, ready to go home where I could take my medication and sleep- like my doctor had advised. But I wasn't kidding anyone, after this there was no possible way I could sleep.