Roller Coaster// Josh Dun Fanfic

THIRTEEN

~Addison pov~

I woke up in Josh's arms. A place I longed to be. Of course it wasn't easy to forgive. But as long as he stayed I was okay. I got out of the bed changed into something that wasn't my pajamas and headed downstairs. My mom was cooking breakfast. She musyt have heard me come down the stairs because she quickly turned around.

"Addi. Honey let me look at you." She walked over to me and hugged me. I winced at the pain. When she let go she kissed me on the cheek and apologized.

"I'm so sorry Addi if I had known that it was serious between you and Josh I wouldn't have said anything. It's just I care about you wah too much to have you get hurt by a man you probably don't know." I smiled at her.

"Mom I love you. Things weren't that serious but I should be the one who is sorry for going behind your back." She hugged me again. I was finally at a place where my life was coming back together. Josh cvame down the stairs after a few minutes.

"Good morning Mrs. Walsh. I'm sorry I slept in your daughter's room last night. I just she ask-" she wrapped her arms around his waist and squeezed him tight.

"Don't you dare ever leg something happen to my daughter again. You stay with her and protect her you hear?" She let go and looked up at him until he answered.

"Yes ma'am!" He smiled at her and sat down at the kitchen table.

"Do you like pancakes?" I asked Josh.

"I would be stupid if I didn't." I handed him a plate with pancakes on it and put the syrup in front of it. "Thank you it looks delicious." Then Tyler came downstairs.

"Good morning I was awoken by the smell of pancakes and to my surprise they are sitting at the table." Tyler joked and sat down next to Josh. We all age breakfast. When we were done Stephanie came down the stairs and gave me a look that would make anyone weak in the knees. She walked right up to me and whispered in my ear.

"Don't you dare think that just because mom is okay with you two I am. You need to stay away from him." With that she walked out the door to her car.

"What was that about?" Josh snaked his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.

"Nothing she just doesn't want us to be together." I turned around so my head was on his chest.

"Looks like she isn't getting what she wants anytime soon." Josh joked and I walked upstairs. "Hey what do you want to do for your birthday next week?" I had totally forgotten about my birthday. I was turning eighteen. No more school until college. If I even got in.

"Umm I don't know. Just no surprises!" I flung myself in the bed and laid there face first into one of the pillows.

"Aww but surprises are fun." Josh whined.

"Too bad." I stuck my tongue out at him. He pouted and crossed his arms. "Why don't we get ice cream today? Seeing as how I am done with finals." I smiled at him.

"Sure let me just get dressed and then we can head out." He took off his shirt and I just stared at him. He noticed and threw his shirt at me waking me from my thoughts. "Quit staring." He grabbed a clean shirt out of his bag that was sitting on the floor near the closet.

"Sorry." Was all I could say. He was so confident in changing in front of me it was almost weird.

"You are staring again." He stopped what he was doing and looked at me. "If I didn't know any better I would think you want me." He laughed. It was partially true. His body wasn't super fit but his arms are strong and he looked good. I looked away after a few more seconds of staring. "Ready!" He shouted waking me from my thoughts.

"Okay let's go." I got up off the bed grabbed my phone and walked to the car. We both decided I was going to drive since I was better at it and he didn't know the area like I did. Stopping at a red light her grabbed my knee just below the middle of my thigh. I could feel my face heat up. He slowly slid his hand up my leg until it was inches away from the top of my thigh. As fast as I could I drove to the nearest ice cream place and parked in an empty spot. I stopped the car and jumped out. Josh gave me a confused look but I just walked inside.

We walked to the counter and ordered.

"I'll have a vanilla milkshake with chocolate chips." I asked the lady at the counter. Josh was still looking at me. I looked back at him and told him it was his turn.

"I'll have a chocolate milkshake with caramel sauce." He turned back around and kept looking at me.

"Quit it!" I whisper yelled at him when we got to the table milkshakes in hand.

"What happened in the car?" He frowned.

"What do you mean what happened in the car?" I knew what he meant I just didn't want to remember it.

"Addison you know what happened in the car." He looked at me sternly.

"I don't know what you are talking about." I grabbed my milkshake and started walking to the car. When we were outside Josh grabbed my wrist. I winced and almost screamed pulling my wrists back

"Addison show we your arms." He spoke softly.

"No let's just go home please." I could feel my eyes getting hot.

"Addison." He looked at me in a way that could break your heart.

"Why do you keep calling me Addison? You never used to call me Addison."

"Don't try to change the subject just show me your wrists." I pulled up my sleeves and showed him my arms. There were scars and clean cuts all the way up my arms. "Oh my god Addi what did you do?" I was clearly crying now and the worried sound in his voice only made it worse.

"I'm sorry I just was upset at myself I'm so stupid I never should have done this lets just please go home." We got into the car and he drives this time. I was still crying but it wasn't as bad as before. Why did I do this to myself? Why did I hurt Josh?