Roller Coaster// Josh Dun Fanfic

FØURTEEN

~Josh pov~

The drive back to her house was silent except for the whimpers that came from Addi every once and a while. I wanted to say something but I couldn't find the words. When we got back to her house she ran up the stairs to her room. I heard a click. She locked the door. I chased after her.

"Addison please let me in." I put my ear on the door. She was still crying. I heard a click. The door was unlocked. "Addison pl-" she cut me off.

"Stop calling me Addison you never called !e that until now!" She walked back into the room and sat on the bed.

"Well that's your name isn't it?"

"Yeah but when you say my full name I feel like you are mad at me. Every time my dad would call me Addison it meant he was either disappointed or mad at me. I don't want to disappoint you Josh." Her voice was shaky.

"Addi you will never disappoint me. I love you okay?" I held her hands in mine.

"Okay. I love you too." She nestled her head in my neck and held on tight to my waist.

"So about what happened in the car." I didn't want to bring it up but I needed to know.

"What about what happened?" She asked.

"Well when I touched you on your leg you freaked out." The smile on her face turned into a frown.

"It's not that I didn't want you to touch me it's just I didn't expect it."

"So you were turned on when I did this?" I placed my hand on her knee and started moving it upward. A small moan escaped from her lips. I removed my hand and cupped her face kissing her softly. She deepend the kiss. "Damn Addi someone is needy today." I let go of her but she pulled me back.

"Shut up you know you want me." She kept kissing me. I pulled my shirt off and only separated from her when I pulled it over my head. Soon after that she did the same. We were both sitting on her bed shirtless making out. What more could you ask for.

~Addison pov~

We were making out in my room. Shirtless. I got up only once to shut the door and lock it. I was thinking about all the things that this moment would lead up to. He started down my neck leaving bite marks. I moaned only slightly.

"J-Josh we should prob-probably stop." It felt so wrong but so right. He didn't stop." Josh please" he stopped and looked up at me.

"Sorry I forgot you were a virgin." He put his shirt back on and handed me mine. He walked out and back into his room. I followed him after I put my shirt back on.

"Josh what the hell was that!" I yelled at him.

"You tell me Addi because I have no clue either." He tried to yell back but it came out sarcastic.

"What because I didn't want to have sex with you all of a sudden you hate me?" I was mad. He didn't care.

"I never said that."

"Well it sure did seem like it." I stormed off back to my roo slammedthe door and locked it. How could Josh be so selfish. Was I being selfish? Should I just have sex with him and get it over with? Does he really love me or does he just want to feel me then leave? All of these thoughts flooded my mind. Saw red, I saw blue, I saw black. It was dark. It was miserable. My breathing quickened. My hear raced in my chest. Panic attacks scared me. I was lost.

When I could control my breathing and my heart beat was back to normal i heard a knock on the door.

"I-im busy!" Whoever was on the other side of the door really wanted to come in. The door handle was shaking and the door looked like it was going to break at any moment. "Hold on, hold on!" I walked over to the door unlocked it and opened it. I saw Grayson standing on the other side of the door staring at me. With all the strength I had I pushed the door. With my luck the door swung open. I was face to face with Grayson. He jumped on top of me and hit my on the cheek.

"Baby you made me do this. Just remember I love you." He slammed my already bruised head into the ground. I screamed in pain. I saw blood on the floor and I could feel my head throbbing.

"Leave me alone please!" I screamed and screamed but it was like no one could hear me. "Please Grayson if you stop hurting me I will love you I will do whatever you want be to do!" I screamed once more.

I woke up to someone shaking me. I felt tears streaming down my face. I sat up straight away. Josh was holding me in his arms. "Help me!" I screamed and this time someone heard me.

"I've got you baby girl don't worry. I'm right here it okay." He ran his fingers through my hair to calm me down. Some how it worked. I looked at him. "So you want to tell me what happened?" Josh looked down at !e and spoke softly.

"Gra-Grayson he he tried to hu-hurt me he slammed my head into the-the ground. He said you ma-made me do this. Just re-remember i-i love you. He hurt me J-Josh." My voice was shaking badly and I couldn't stop stuttering. Josh just held me tight and whispered in my ear. I loved him. He was the only person in the world who made me feel like my life wasn't a roller coaster. He would hold me in his arms and I felt like the world stopped. Like I could finally take a breath. Like I didn't have to scream because the ride was over.