Roller Coaster// Josh Dun Fanfic

SIXTEEN

*Addison pov*

There was only one say until my birthday. Until i was finally eighteen. I was excited because that it meant Josh and I could finally be together. It also meant I would have to worry about college and an apartment that wasn't where I lived now. At least I still had Josh. He was all I really needed. He made me happy and he took my anxiety away. I looked over. As usual Josh was sleeping in my room. He had slept in my room this past week and I was glad he didn't want to leave. I decided to wake him up because he hated when I went downstairs without him.

"Joshy wake up." I poked him in the ribs and he grunted. "Josh wake up!" I put my lips to his ear and kissed him. I kissed his neck and then his cheek and finally his lips. I loved him so much. He was my everything. H was also a very cute sleeper.

"Addi five more minutes." He turned on his back. I crawled on top of his kegs straddling him. "Addi stop you know what is going to happen." He tried to pry me off but I stayed there. He was so funny when he whined he sounded like a little kid which he was. He was a big little kid.

"Fine but I'm getting dressed so don't look." Of course he was going to look. I took off my shirt facing away from him revealing my bare back. I still had bruises on my back. He climbed out of the bed and walked over to me. Kissing the back of my neck I felt goosebumps across my skin. He leaned his head in my neck. I was scared he would look at my body and be disgusted. I quickly put on a bra and a shirt. Then I ran to the bathroom. I got nervous when he touched me. He touched my leg and I freaked out. When we were in the car I was almost in tears because I was afraid he would hate me when he looked at the scars, and bruises on body. I was ugly with the cuts on my wrists. I heard a knock on the door shaking me from my thoughts.

"Addi are you okay can I come in?" Josh was on the other side of the door. I wanted to let him in. Show him how ugly I was then cry when he said he didn't want to wait anymore. I grabbed the razor on the side of the sink and slammed it to the ground. Breaking the plastic, the blades slid across the floor. I picked one of them of the ground and held it in my hands. Josh called out again. "Addi what's going on open the door!" I pulled up the sleeve of my shirt and held the razor just above my wrist. The door came unlocked and flung open. Josh was standing on the other side of the door. He ran to me and pulled the now bloody razor out my hands and threw it into the trash.

"Why did you do that Josh?" I was mad at him. Didn't he see?

"Addi please don't do this to yourself." He tried to touch me but I wouldn't let him. "Addi?" I ran out of the bathroom and to my room. I don't know why I went to my room I should have run downstairs. I grabbed a hoodie out of my closet and shoes. Sliding the window up I looked back. This was it I was going to run. Back on the roller coaster."

*Josh pov*

She ran out of the bathroom and into her room. I followed her and noticed she didn't lock the door. I watched her climb out of the window. Her wrist was still bleeding. I grabbed a blanket and a back pack out of the closet. Walking down the stairs I grabbed my keys and walked out the door. She couldn't have gone far I quickly chased after her. I didn't care if she wanted to see me or not. Knowing her she was headed to a quiet place. I headed to the bridge. She wasn't there. Next I went to Big Pete's and then the record store. She wasn't in those places either where could she be? I began to worry until I saw Grayson. He was with Addi. She was with Grayson and she wasn't struggling to get away from him. They walked down a dark and empty alley. Where were they going?