Just Friends

Chapter 11

E l e v e n

"No matter how much you hurt me, I still love you."

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I couldn't believe those words slipped right out of my mouth. Those three words. That wasn't even the worst part of the whole situation. It was because I just unleashed my biggest secret to my best friend. I didn't want to look at Justin, I just wished I'd never came over. Would this ruin our friendship? Would I loose the guy that I loved? I could feel myself panicking so I forced myself to look at Justin's face.

His hair was a bit messy and even I could feel my hair sticking to my damp skin. Justin's expression was almost unreadable and the only emotion I think it was close too, was surprised.

"What?" He asked me, his eyebrows furrowed. I was sure he had heard it.

This was the pressure. Did I tell
him about my feelings? I felt trapped and water filled my eyes.

"I have to go." I whispered to him, pulling the sheets up over my body so it was unseen. I quickly put my shirt on with some short jeans and walked out of the room ready to let the tears escape.

"Ariana, wait!" I heard Justin's voice call after me as I kept walking.

I ignored him. He obviously didn't feel the same and I knew that I screwed up. I could here Justin jogging behind me and I walked faster. As soon as I got outside, Justin grabbed my arms and pulled me around to face him. I looked at the ground, avoiding all contact.

"Ariana, please, talk to me baby." He breathed out, his hands gripping my waist.

"Let me go. You heard what I said and we both know what we had was wrong." I said, trying my best not to cry. I hated crying and I refused to cry in front of Justin.

"I thought we talked about it Ariana. The whole feelings thing." He said wrapping his hands around my waist but I pulled out of his embrace, shaking my head at him. He didn't get it.

"I'm sorry that I fell in love with such a dick." I said and I turned around and left.

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I crawled on my bed after having a shower which made me feel a lot better. Luckily my parents were out tonight otherwise my mom would have wanted to know what was wrong and I didn't feel like talking about it at the moment.

How could have I been so stupid? Why did I tell him? I felt the warm tears fall from my eyes and land on my cheeks. I hated crying although I'm glad Justin didn't see. It's better crying without anyone seeing than Justin.

The sound of my phone buzzed and I grabbed it off my bedside table.

ari please come over. we need to talk. i dont want to loose u.
justin. 6:23pm

I laughed harshly and put the phone where it already was. How could I possibly talk to him when I know he doesn't feel the same? I knew it all along, I just didn't want to believe it. I felt so hurt, though.
It would just remind me of how much I actually loved him. I hadn't even realised that with all the time I'd spent with Justin, I'd fell in love with him. His beautiful smile and his perfect body. His laugh, his hair. The way he made me smile just by seeing him.

"Open the door!"

I froze.

"Who's there?" I asked.

"Who do you think? It's your best friend. Open the door."

I gave a small smile and rolled my eyes realising it was Liz. The door opened and she had a furious look on her face.