Shadows Of The Past ( Interracial,bwwm)

What now?

Leo P. O. V.

Ever since realizing that Alicia is the woman that I can't see myself without, I've been trying my absolute best treating her with even more care and respect.
I desperately want to tell her how deeply I feel, but my insecurities get the best of me and I don't want her to see that.
The bigger problem is she still doesn't know my deepest secret. The secret that haunts me every day I live. The only people that know are my parents and my best friend.
I'm scared that she'll find out on her own and be scared and run off without me getting a chance to explain.  But the truth always gets out eventually, so the sooner she knows the better.
As far as the investigation goes, the police are too damn slow so I decided to take matters into my own hands, which I should've done in the first place.
We had a source come in and confirm that it wasn't Natalie or Rico behind this, but someone they both knew in the past. Which makes us think that they're doing the dirty work and Natalie and Rico are definitely the culprits. Alicia doesn't seem to care about the whole thing, and I still can't get it through her thick skull that the drive by was intended for her, and that very thought scares me to death.

Alicia P. O. V.

Ever since the drive by, I've been caved inside the house while Leo and his father investigate things further. 
I've also noticed how Leo is being very suspicious, like he's hiding something from me.
I don't know exactly what it is, but I'm determined to find out.
On the contrary, that makes me a hypocrite because I'm hiding something from him too.
I desperately want to tell him but I'm too scared he's gonna up and leave, but if I were him I wouldn't really blame him.
I decided to pay him a visit in his office since there's nothing else to do.
I walked in  and unlike usual he wasn't on his computer or on the phone , I saw him take a pill out of a prescription bottle  and swallow it. I walked over to him and tried to see what he was taking and assumed he probably just had the common cold or something. As I reached for the bottle he grabbed it quickly and stuck it into the nearest drawer. I raised my eyebrows at him And he made a face I'd never seen on him before . The look in his eyes were a mix of embarrassment and fear.  He quickly sprinted up and rushed to me.
" Alicia baby, it's not what it looks like I swear!" He said grabbing both my wrists.
" Well then what was it Leo??" I asked.
" Sit down please" he sighed gesturing towards the chair that was in front of his desk.
He looked around nervously before making eye contact with me.
" When I was a teenager in high school I would have these random mood swings and at first me or my parents didn't think anything of it, until it got worse and I would spas out on random people or my classmates. As time went on it gradually got worse and my parents took me to a doctor to do some scans. I was later diagnosed with bipolar disorder and ever since then I've been taking medication to keep it under control. I didn't tell you because I've seen how it's affected my relationships in the past and I didn't want to see that happen again with you. I'm sorry Alicia." He finished looking down at his feet.
At this moment I wasn't mad or freaked out or scared, I was deciding  whether or not I should tell him my secret.  I froze, unsure of what to do or what to say.  I looked up at Leo and there was one single tear falling down his right cheek, and I could tell he was in pain from telling me this. Either I could be selfish and keep it a secret or be truthful which Is what he deserved.  I stood up and hugged him, no words or speaking, just embracing. And I held onto that for as long as possible because what I was about to say next would pain me to the next level, but I had to do what was right.

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